QUE SERA SERA

What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger

2012-02-11T21:55:00.001+08:00

Really have got no idea what to blog about since most of my thoughts are in my diary lol
V Day is in 3 days time, and I’ve always thought that it’s on the 12th of Feb……….. -_-
But it doesn’t affect me anyway since I’m single and ready to mingleee LOL JK
I can’t wait for poly to start already, sick of staying at home and being a useless blob.

Going to work at MBS from tomorrow till the end of next week~~~
Which means, I’m gonna be working on V Day haha dk be happy or sad
But at least it won’t be so pathetic cuz I won’t be alone at home with my computer, reminding myself that I’m #foreveralone
AND, there’s finally going to be a source of income ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ ^^ YAY CLOTHES CLOTHES CLOTHESSSS

Oh, and Y came over to my house for baking session (TWICE) last week and we made cookies & Snickerdoodle Blondie cupcakes :>
OMG I can’t get over the fact that the blondies are TO. DIE. FOR.
So going to bake it again, x2 the batch!!!!

MMMMMMMMM, DE-LI-CIOUSZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
Ogay, finally churned up a post hahahaha
Till then,

BRACEFACE

2012-02-08T17:11:00.001+08:00

HEYYYY! :>
I’m in a super good mood because I’ve got my braces done woohooooooo
I am going to smile at everything & anything starting from today!!! HAHAHAHAH.
Gonna be so retarded but I’m in love w my braces~
I wanted it to be blue but idk why my dentist went to put pink………….. OWELLL ^^
Had some complications while having braces due to my infection :o
But it’s alright now hahahah.
OGAY, READY TO SEE MY BRACEFACE??? ^^

:B
OKAY BYE

2012-02-08T11:55:00.001+08:00

Ohai! I invested in a guitar yesterday……. It costs a bomb but it’s gonna be worth the money *chants
I’m taking up guitar lessons, so hopefully this guitar won’t go to waste..
It’s the same brand as Safirah’s yo! The person recommended it to me and I was sold man.
I LOVE LOVE LOVE HOW CLASSY IT LOOKS!!! Especially with the mother-of-pearl lookalike details.
Sigh, I’m in love with my guitar. :>

Going for braces later on, but my gum swelled up yesterday and I suspect it’s gum abscess.
But a gum abscess is supposed to occur when there’s a tooth decay..
BUT I HAVE GOT NO TOOTH THERE OLEDI LEH!!?!?!? FUNNY AH.
Not sure though, but it got bigger and bigger throughout the day and it actually ruptured (eeew).
The contents (LOL FIGURE IT YOURSELF) inside the “blister” oozed out, it was just.. GROSS.
It’s slightly better today but I’m afraid Dr T won’t allow me to have braces HAIX.
I’ve been waiting for this day to arrive yet this stupid blister decided to show up.

OGAY, I doubt any one of you are interested but owell HAHAHAHA.
Going to meet D for lunch later on before braces yayyyy ^^
K BYE.

Why diu no stop copying? Thought you hated it? Lame la prease.

Mess We’ve Made

2012-02-06T23:49:00.001+08:00

I'd been so strong for so long
I could handle everything
Now that you've gone through that door,
I can't see anything
Oooooohh
I swallow my pain
Oooooohh
Nothing's the same

Let this come crashing down
There's no way to fix it now
We're lost in the crowd
and our love will soon decay
Just look at the mess we've made
We both know that we can't stay

I was hoping that this would last
I guess i was wrong
Ohh
I planned out our future together
But now that's all gone
Ohh, oooohhh
Another mistake (another mistake)
Ooooohh
We're both to blame (we're both to blame)

So just let this come crashing down
There's no way to fix it now
We're lost in the crowd and our love will soon decay
Just look at the mess we've made
We both know that we can't stay

Ohh,
Everything we ever had now is ending
I didn't wanna have to say our goodbye (didn't wanna have to say goodbye)
Baby, It's best we let this go
Trust me

It's better if we just let this come crashing down
There's no way to fix it now
We're lost in the crowd and our love will soon decay
Just look at the mess we've made
We both know that we can't stay
I'm sorry but I can't stay
Just look at the mess we've made

2012-02-06T23:00:00.001+08:00

2012-02-05T18:57:00.001+08:00

“You don’t just get to just ignore me and then conveniently remember I exist when you need something from me.
You can’t just decide you don’t want me, and then come running back to me.

I’m not just a space or time filler until someone or something better comes along.

I’m not just someone you can just use and take advantage of,

then just leave when you’ve had enough or you got what you wanted.”

Stuck in her daydream

2012-02-03T23:28:00.001+08:00

Last day of work @ BR today and I actually felt really guilty for leaving :/
Ryoma sort of begged me to stay haix, but oh well I’m officially unemployed once again.
Saf & Atiqa came over to visit me and I was really touched :’) They even got me a gift?!!?!?!! to you girls
LOL and my Mom came too, with my 2 aunts and cousin LOLOLOL.
It’s like everyone’s there to watch me resign -_-
Met a new girl today, Ellie! I love her name, it’s like so simple and sweet :>

Anyway, I really can’t wait for school to startttttt. I wna revamp my wardrobe~~
OK, Cash flowing like tap even though I’m unemployed GG
Okay, visit to TTL’s tomorrow woohoo
Then Chronicle & dinz w friends~

I guess a huge change is necessary in my life in order for it to be back to normal.
I’m going to change my life, physically. Getting braces this Wednesday and I’m going to dye my hair red.
A CHANGE IS NEEDED. REALLY.
Oh, talking about braces, the metal rings in my mouth hurt like OHMYFVCKING GOD.
I’ve got so many ulcers in my mouth and I can’t pronounce any words starting with ‘S’, ‘X’ and ‘C’.
SIGH, FOR BEAUTY. I. WILL. ENDURE.

OKAY TILL THEN.

2012-02-02T15:28:00.001+08:00

JAE RESULTS

2012-01-30T11:43:00.001+08:00

I’m not really excited that I’ve got into CCM…
I don’t know why but I think I’m having some second thoughts?
I thought that the results might be something unexpected, just like how the GCE ‘O’ Level Results were.
Well, looks like I’m a business student now hahahaha
“You belong to the kitchen.” LOL, I sure hope so.

ANYWAYY, I AM FINALLY IN TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC, MY DREAM SCHOOOL!!!!!!! ^^
And a lot of my friends are in TP as well, hmmmm… LET THE POLY LIFE BEGIN.

初三

2012-01-26T17:27:00.001+08:00

We decided to have a stayover & steamboat at Cat’s Crib on 初三 and it was a successsss :>
On 初三 itself, we gathered at the headquarters, aka Cat’s crib before heading out for house visiting.
I had dental appointment @ KTPH so they sent me to KTPH before leaving for house visiting lol
Had my teeth extracted for braces, it wasn’t as bad as I thought it’d be!!
The anaesthetic jab was the only thing that hurt, but it was only like a prick.
The extraction itself was, literally painless.
You can hear and feel the motion of the dentist extracting, but you can’t feel the pain at all!!!
The experience of having anaesthetic was super cool LOLOL Made my whole lips numbbbb

Anyway, after my appointment, headed down to JY’s houe to bai nian ^^
Sat for awhile and went back to the headquarters to put our stuff before…. GROCERY SHOPPINGGG!
Things happened otw, made me damn upset & disappointed & furious, but thanks to them, I pulled through
After grocery shopping, we went back and prepared the steamboat while some of them went home to change
Started our steamboat @ around 7.30PM and had a lot of fun just chilling & enjoying the foooood!
Watched Percy Jackson too, super cool movie

Ate until around 10PM & started to clean up~
After that, BREEEZERRR TIME!! First time trying it and it was… OK. LOL
We had a toast to… Nothing. HAHAHA I think it’s funny cuz we self-timed our yamseng shot, quite pathetic LOL
After that, they gambled while I just sat & nua-ed…….
Showered & went out @ around 2AM to get eye drops for QW -_-
7-11 didn’t have it so we walked all the way to the petrol station omg so freaking far
And decided to walk to tauhuey to ta-bao and it was……. CLOSED. UGH………..
Ta bao-ed MacD instead @ the 24-hour drive thru when we could’ve just ta bao-ed @ NP ._____.
Went back and played mahjong, rot, stoned……… 6AM came and most of us CMI already
Napped on the couch and cooked fried rice for Cat @ 7AM before returning home

Reached home, showered, SLEPT LIKA BOSS UNTIL 2.30PM.
And here I am, home alone, listening to some sad songs and feeling really really disappointed.
But I’ve decided to just handle things in a grown-up manner, let’s just

CNY 2012

2012-01-25T00:34:00.001+08:00

This year’s CNY was totally not festive at all man!!!!
Like, it’s just another ordinary day, except we have to go house visiting & collect ang baos.
I really hope next year’s CNY would be better.
Nonetheless, I’m glad that I managed to bond more with my paternal side’s relatives.

This was during Reunion Dinner @ Granny’s place. THERE WAS A HUGEEEEE SPREAD OF FOOD.
The table was even longer than what’s being shown in the photo, couldn’t even fit into the frame!!!

And my very first Yu Sheng of the year woohoo!!! ^^
I love my paternal side’s relatives cuz of their sense of humour & sarcasm HAHAAHAH!
They love to give one another sarcastic remarks but will never get mad at one another LOLOL

My uncle made this for all the Tiang families, can you believe it?! IT’S SO GORGEOUS LA.
Why can’t I have some of his artistic genes D:

Like I said, I painted my nails blood red to fit into CNY! ^^
Absolutely to-die-for pineapple tarts made by my aunt!!!!!
SUPER DELICIOUS, EVEN BETTER THAN BENGAWAN SOLO PLEASEEEEE.
And this is my outfit for the first day of the Lunar New Year! :> Cupcake dress~~~
And yep, I reused my prom clutch lolol

On the second day of the L.N.Y, I went to the zoo with my aunt’s family lol.
Normally, all my maternal side’s relatives will come over to my house to gamble but for this year,
my mom had to open her stall with my aunt so it was cancelled D:
I was SO disappointed that I actually cried lol.
ANYWAY, the trip to the zoo was enjoyable too, at least it didn’t rain!!

Yep, a photo of a photo LOL.

Alright, that’s all folks! I can’t wait for tomorrow hehehehehehe :>
Dental appointment + house visitings + steamboat!!!!
Till then, don’t grow too fat!

CNY EVE

2012-01-22T15:34:00.001+08:00

Woohoo, it’s CNY Eve, reunion dinz laterrrr ^^
I can’t really feel the festive mood at all though, like there’s no decorations in my house or whatsoever.
Le sigh, looks like the tradition’s going to be gone really soon.
ANYWAYYYY, I painted my nails red to go with CNY hehehe.
Took me like 3 hours cuz it kept smudging wtf, wasted like 1/4 of the entire pot of nail polish..
Kinda like the colour though, makes my hand look fair LOL
Okay, can’t wait to meet all my paternal side’s relatives later on even though I don’t really interact w them..
OK TILL THEN, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEARRRR! :>

2012-01-18T22:00:00.001+08:00

I’m going to quit my job tomorrow, after asking for advice from a lot of people.
I just can’t handle the stress there, and it’s just not suitable for me.
I’ve got so many bruises and wounds on my arms, even my mom was shocked at the state I was in.
Yes the job can be fun at times but $5.50 for frostbites, blue-blacks, burns, rude remarks.. Worth it? NO.
I’d rather work with CE & get cash vouchers thrown in my face.
I was at the verge of losing control of myself but thanks to Y & M, I managed to pull through.
Yes I’m not exaggerating at all, I nearly went nuts.
I just can’t seem to find the courage to tell my manager I want to quit but I have to. HAVE TO.
God, please give me the courage that I’m lacking.

Before the worst

2012-01-16T19:01:00.001+08:00

I still miss you, yes I do.
How do you expect me to move on, seriously.

Obsessed

2012-01-16T00:05:00.001+08:00

I rarely go ga-ga over celebrities and such but after watching 1D’s One Thing MV, I’m officially obsessed over 1D!!
OMFG, ZAYN MALIKKKKK Y U SO CUTE & GORGEOUS & HOT & PERFECTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.

Omg, perfectly chiselled jaw, beautiful eyes, sharp nose…………
Lol I am really sounding like a pervert now but guys w defined jawlines, TO DIE FOR.
I have work at like 8.30 tomorrow but I’m youtubing 1D all the way, gr8.
AHHHH, I’M GNA SLEEP & DREAM OF ZAYN HAHAHAHAHA
At least, Zayn helped to put my mind off of other things. :>

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

Dread

2012-01-15T12:10:00.001+08:00

Heyyyyyy.
Started work last week and I don’t know why but I just don’t really like the environment there.
The people… They’re so fake? I can’t put a finger on it, I just don’t know how to explain.
& on the first day of work, I have to face customers without any training at all.
I have to work the cash register, serve customers, handle cake orders etc when I’m clueless wtf
I screwed up the cash register so many times on the first day and received complaints as well.
How do they expect me to perform well when they didn’t even provide any training in the first place!!?!?!?
BR is not just about scooping ice-cream, fyi. I hate it when I explain the job to people and they’ll be like,
“Huh, scoop ice-cream only, so tough meh?”
Ha, if you’re so capable, why not you try to do it.
And just because I’m a newbie, they kind of treat me like a slave?
Idk if I should just resign and work with CE all the way, since it’s more flexible.
But I don’t want the colleagues to say that I’m a weakling, I don’t want to be looked down on.
Everyday when I’m otw to work, there’ll be a knot at the pit of my stomach and it’s like I’m gna vomit on the train
DREAD.DREAD.DREAD.DREAD.DREAD.
Yes, the job can be fun at times, but serving customers when I have no knowledge at all.. It sucks.
I hope as time goes by, I can get better at it so that I won’t have to rely on my colleagues anymore.

On a lighter note, I can’t wait for school to start. Even though I don’t know which school I’ll be going to,
I’m ready for a new environment and a new change to my life.
I must move on, since you’ve already moved on without me.

Thank Goddess of Mercy & WJE

2012-01-10T21:51:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was the release of the GCE ‘O’ Level Results.
My results were totally unexpected, but I’m more than satisfied, some even said I’m the underdog lol
I really didn’t expect myself to surpass my own expectations.
Furthermore, I was having some internal struggles during the O level period.
I guess part of the reason why I did well was due to Luck, especially for C.Humans.
I only studied Sri Lanka and it came out, hence I did exceptionally well despite being a F9 type of person during tests and school examination.
Part of the reason was also due to WJE.
I am so glad to have chosen WJE because I jumped 7 grades up for my Maths within 3 months.
Wayne is just such an inspiration and motivation to all of us.

I guess everyone’s struggling with their course preference now, with 12 choices to make.
I’ve already roughly made my choices, but still having second thoughts.
My parents object some of my decisions, saying that I won’t have a bright future with that.
Idk, do I really want to pursue my passion for culinary or something else that also interests me?
All these while, I thought that CCM is the course for me, but now that I’ve got such unexpected results,
I can actually pursue some other course that I like as well.
Dilemma much. Alright, I still have got 3 days to make my choice.

Oh, and I’m part of Century Evergreen now, because BR’s job schedule is really lame.
I’m only working NINE hours this week. Yes, NINE.
Therefore, decided to get a second job, better paying at least.
Okay, till then.

Discover the person you want to be

2012-01-07T23:44:00.001+08:00

Yay for hole in bangs

Ohai, I should really update this blog so here I am.
Today was apparently my “lucky” day; I woke up an hour late to meet friends for breakfast, my EZ Link card had insufficient fund (technically it was sufficient if I’m still using student fare, DAMN SMRT), and I forgot to bring cash AND my POSB Card.
THANK GOD I GOT $2 IN MY WALLET IF NOT I’D HAVE TO RUSH HOME, AND BE LATER THAN LATE.

So went back to school for their CCA Orientation, this time round as an audience.
It feels SO weird, like all the OP students would just stare at you but not wave or say hi wtf
Saw a lot of my schoolmates, super happppy ^^
We’ll see one another again on Monday… GR8 RESULTS DAY ZZZZ
Watched their performance and seriously, I think OP’s CCA groups need a huge revamp.
Like… Ya if you get what I mean. -_-

Anyway, after orientation + alumni practice, went down to NYP (impromptu ttm please) to support ASSIDUOUS
They were participating in this competition called “Stage Without Borders” I think..
Holy moly so many talented people there hahahaha I loved that popping duo.
Had a lot of fun teasing (oops) the performers w S, damn I miss that gurl!!!!
After the whole thing, didn’t really know where to go so D and I decided to catch a movie (IMPROMPTU, AGAIN.)
OMFG MISSION IMPOSSIBLE: GHOST PROTOCOL IS FREAKING NICE.
I was at the edge of my seat the whole time despite yawning (I WAS TIRED K) and I had sweaty palms after the whole movie lol.
I even screamed (silently) at one point omfg, really damn thrilling.
Yay thanks D for the free popcorn, hahaha free dinner yo

OKAY, I’M GETTING BACK MY GCE O LEVEL RESULTS IN 2 DAYS TIME HOLYCRAPPADOODLEDO
I can’t believe I just wasted 2 months, not working and all lol….
I got a job already k, STARTING WORK NEXT WEEEK WOOHOOOOO!!!!
LAI LAI COME VISIT ME, I CAN’T SAY WHERE FOR NOW SINCE SAF GOT A PLAN EH HAHAHA.
Aiya, doubt anyone’s reading my blog anyway lol ok can.
Been writing a lot in my journal nowadays (yes, I keep a journal), love the amount of privacy it gives, rather than keeping a blog.
Hence, I think I won’t be updating this blog as often, but still I’d keep it somewhat alive, somehow.
Alright, thanks for reading my half-arsed post.
lovelovemuacksmuacks

2012-01-04T14:27:00.001+08:00

Easier said than done.
Seriously, I think Life is out to troll me this year.

At last.

2012-01-03T02:55:00.001+08:00

I'm so close to freeing myself from this misery, I can almost see the surface now.
I know that if I just reach out, I'd be able to resurface to the light.
I know that nothing can stop me now, I'm on my way to happiness.
I don't deserve this misery and waste of youth.
I deserve better and am worth more than that.
Everyday, I wake up feeling lighter, like the load's being lifted off my shoulders.
I guess the more I dare to face the horrible truth, the better I get.
What's better than overcoming your fear than facing fear itself?
I can't do no shit about the mistakes that I've made in the past, but what I do know is I can make my tomorrow a better day.
I am not going to just ruin my 2012 like that.
It's a year, 365 days.
I can do a lot of things with that.
Happy things, memorable things, beneficial things.
I'm not going to whine and pine away anymore.
I've never felt so ready in my life before, I'm ready to take on any challenges in life.
I'm ready to be a better person, bit by bit.
Even small changes to my daily life's going to play a huge part.
The journey's going to be bumpy but that's what's going to make it even more memorable.
I've been waiting for so long to able to say that: I'm ready to move on, at last.

2012

2012-01-01T13:46:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR BABYYYYYYYYY.
It’s officially 2012, wow. Yep, totally just WOW.
I just can’t believe it, it’s a brand NEW year.
I already feel refreshed because it’s a brand new year, a fresh new page, untainted.
And boy do I hope that it’s going to stay that way!
I can’t wait to rock this year, I’m going to be a better person and I know it.
No more silly mistakes, I’m just going to enjoy life to the fullest.
Perhaps when you bump into me on the road, I’d be a changed person.
But to a better person, that is. :>

I spent my New Year’s Eve with the 3 buds, SK, T & DX!
It was a totally unplanned and random meet-up but it was fun nonetheless (;
We watched We Bought a Zoo and it was a rather touching story :>
Movie ended at around 11.45PM, just nice for us to stroll to the main Orchard Road for the countdown!
We just squeezed with the crowd and there was just so many….. foreign workers.
I was horrified tbh and had to cling on to DX LOL.
We stood outside this on-going concert outside Takashimaya and just watched as the foreign workers sprayed the foam spray on everyone……………
We dodged, of course! And soon, we heard the countdown and viola, HAPPY NEW YEAR!
And… MORE FOAM SPRAY. UGH DISGUSTING.
We screamed and cheered and quickly made our way to Somerset hahahah
DX got sprayed on his hair and he was like, oh coool. HAHAHAHA
Wished random strangers HNY and took the train to MB.
Initial plan was to find the guys at the Barrage but when we reached MB Station, we couldn’t even get out of the station. IT WAS SO CROWDED AND YOU CAN LITERALLY FEEL THE BODY HEAT OF EVERYONE OMFG KILL ME.
So we made a detour to Plaza Sing and just sat in Starbucks to chill and spilled some of our personal secrets lol
"WHAT’S BEING SPILLED ON THIS TABLE, STAYS ON THIS TABLE!"
We left at around 2AM to catch the REBOUNCE (LOLOLOL JOKE OF THE YEAR) train home.

Yep, that was pretty much how I spent New Year’s Eve!
Though it wasn’t what I’ve expected it to be, it was unexpectedly fun and enjoyable ^^
HOPEFULLY THIS YEAR’S COUNTDOWN WOULD BE MUCH MORE GRANDER LOL
Alright, enjoy the rest of the new year! CHEEERS

Farewell 2011

2011-12-30T21:05:00.004+08:00

Been listening to all the BLG songs over and over again.
My favourite is of course, Thunder. :’)

"Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer, Do you know you're unlike any other? You'll always be my thunder and I said, Your eyes are the brightest of all the colours.”

Just love the lyrics, so sweet and fairy tale-ish… Even though it’s bullshit lol.
Went for an interview at Baskin Robbins and the interview went pretty well. :)
Manager was damn friendly till I even slipped out some Singlish ._.
I think I’ve got a high chance of getting employed.. Okay don’t put too much hope first.
Pay’s not really very good but I don’t mind since it’s going to be a fun job ^^
Met a super out-going girl, Jermaine! We clicked from the start lol like woahhh.
And we even text like close friends?!?!?11?!?!?
I think it’s kind of fated between BR & me… Long story but yep.. HAHAHA.
Introduced this job to D too, hopefully he can work w me hahaha :>

Still recovering from a super bad sorethroat and cough.
I RARELY get coughs but when I do, it’s like someone just stuffed a fist together w a feather down my throat.
MAD PAINFUL AND ITCHY AT THE SAME TIME WUT.
Tomorrow’s New Year’s Eve, how fast can 2011 be, seriously!?
I can still vivdly remember the countdown at MB with friends last year wtf and now it’s gonna be 2012!!!!?
Time flies.. This is madness man.
As 2012 approaches, the rumour of the world ending in 2012 is starting to sound more like a
joke to me lololol
I was actually bloody frightened when I heard of it a few years back but now as 2012 is just round the corner,
I think it’s all just a bunch of bullshit. IDK, WE’LL SEE ON THE 21ST OF DECEMBER 2012 LOL.

2011 has been quite an interesting year, a roller-coaster ride once again but with slightly a bit more bumps.
I kinda maybe did fell in a bit of love, but bah, let’s just leave it as that.
I had my last SYF and I really learnt a lot from it and I miss making music :(
I attended WJE, and met a super talented tutor, Wayne whom I’m really glad that I’ve found.
I took my GCE ‘O’ Level, SUPER crazy and chaotic and STRESSFUL but I kinda miss studying, a lot.
I graduated from Orchid Park after four years, it may sound like a really long time but boy was it fast.
I attended Prom and it was the best night of my life.
I attended TPRawks, and grew to love Temasek Polytechnic more and more.
I travelled to BeiJing again with the Model Students of OPSS, and it was a super enjoyable trip!! Damn, I miss them
Many people entered my life, and at the same time some drifted away from me.
I bonded more with my brother this year as well, super grateful.

I’ve also taken away many life lessons from various people.
I’ve learnt that nothing lasts forever, and that promises are sometimes really meant to be broken.
And that when falling in love, never fall too hard. If not, you’re going to be at the losing end.
I’ve also learnt that to maintain a relationship, be it friendship or kinship, always think before you act.
Be responsible for your own actions and watch before you speak.

When given an opportunity, no matter what it is, FREAKING GRAB IT.
There will NEVER be another chance for you ever again, so just grab it. If not, you WILL regret it.
I don’t know how much I have to emphasize on this issue, but really, trust me.
And no matter how awkward a situation is at the beginning, you will warm up in the end. :’)
Ah, how I love reflecting on my life.
I admit, I’ve made a lot of mistakes in 2011, and have made a lot of decisions that I am STILL regretting.
And that’s why I’m telling all of you, if you don’t want to regret your actions, JUST DO IT.
HAHAHA THIS SOUNDS LIKE A LECTURE MANNNN.
I know there’s no point in regretting anymore. So, I guess I just have to learn to move on?
Life still goes on anyway. Actually I think I still have a chance to mend it but I just don’t have the guts lol.
BAHHHH, FORGET ABOUT THE SAD THINGS ^^

Moving on to my New Year Resolutions:
- Spend more time with my dad
- Stop bickering with my mom
- Have more initiative and guts
- Accept all opportunities given
- NOT TO REGRET ANY DECISIONS MADE
- Self-love and respect
- Have a healthy lifestyle; run more often, no junk food
- Do some volunteer work
- The world to not end.......?

SO GUYS, LET’S JUST:
LOVE LIFE (YAY CHRIS RENE), CHERISH THE PEOPLE AROUND YOU, LOOK AT THE BIGGER PICTURE, FORGIVE & FORGET, LIVE LIKE AS IF IT’S YOUR LAST, AND WELCOME 2012 WITH A SMILE.
I’ll just leave you guys with this quote to end 2011:

“Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind.”
― Dr. Seuss

Till then with much love and kisses and hugs,
SiJia

2011-12-28T18:10:00.001+08:00

It must be a curse or something.
Why must things start to screw up at the end of the year, every single year without fail.

It’s the most beautiful time of the year

2011-12-26T13:37:00.001+08:00

Merry Christmas! (belated)
Hope you guys had more fun that I did lol
This year’s Christmas was pretty meh-ish and mundane, nothing happening.
Went over to Trishia’s just like last year but few people went this time round :(
Didn’t get to stay overnight too, but overall was a decent one hahaha
And just like that, Christmas is over.
Let’s just hope that next year’s Christmas gonna be more happening & exciting!!

I really hope that my source is unreliable, that the news is not true.
I couldn’t sleep last night, because my mind was burning with questions and doubts.
If the news is really true, I guess I won’t dare to fall in love ever again.
This is the only way to prevent myself from hurting again.
I know it’s selfish of me to not give myself another chance,
but how do you expect me to love again after seeing the one you love just walk away.
I know I’m only 16, not even reaching the digit 2 yet.
But I guess what I need most now is time.
Time heals everything, yes? Well, I sure hope so.

Christmas Eve

2011-12-24T01:18:00.001+08:00

Merry Christmas Eve, people! :>
Well, I know that tis’ the season to be jolly but I don’t really feel happy, have no idea why too.
Somehow I just feel that SG don’t really see Christmas as an important day.
You don’t really see people buying Christmas trees and decorating their households, as compared to people living in the US & such.
The most is just buying gifts and having gatherings with loved ones.
I guess because we’re in a multi-racial society and everyone has got different beliefs and such.
Moreover, there’s no snow in Singapore, so kinda no-atmosphere lol
Olrighty I have no idea what I’m blabbing on about lol.
I guess it’s another lonely Christmas this year, huh? :)))) Owellllll.

Feeling kinda down because I’m still jobless.
RI cheated my f*cking feelings (I shall refrain from swearing since it IS Christmas after all).
That lady said she’ll call me back at the end of the day when I called her and guess what, no calls at all.
If you don’t want me, then might as well don’t give me false hope.
Ha, fancy an adult lying huh?
I actually sent my resume to SB w Dwayne already, just crossing my fingers.
SB need a lot of commitment, half year contract..
If I’m given a job there, that means I’m gna study & work at the same time.
But I don’t really care, I just need a job and I think that working at SB is gna be SO cooool.
I think that giving me a job would be the BEST Christmas gift ever.
I just feel like a failure because all my friends are working except for me.
It’s not that I don’t want to work, it’s just that they just don’t wna hire me.. Sigh

Gonna bake Christmas cookies tomorrow, kinda excited but sick of it at the same time lol
The reason why I’m sick of it is cuz I helped to bake 378 cookies for my brother for him to give to his friends.
Yep, a whooping 378.
Alright, gna end here.
Goodnight people, and enjoy this holiday season! :>

2011-12-21T15:11:00.001+08:00

So much emotions inside this song cover.
Kurt is finally singing, hopefully he’ll make more covers rather than just play the piano.
Alright, gonna bake with my brother (YES, MY BRO) later on LOLOLOL. BONDING TIMEEEEE.
Okay, short & rather meaningless post lol.
I promise a post with SUBSTANCE soon.
4 more days to Christmas, who’s excited!?!?!? WELL, I AM!!!!

Never planned that one day I’ll be losing you

2011-12-19T11:43:00.001+08:00

Ohai!
WJE Thanksgiving Chalet later on, not really hyped up because.. Just look at the weather.
How to have fun!? Not that I don’t appreciate the cold and cooling weather, but it’s just hard to play in the rain..
It’s alright, I’m sure Wayne’s got something up his sleeves.
Won’t be staying over later on because it’s gonna be pretty awkward…. LOL I barely know them.
Nvm, make new friends ^^ Anyway, there’s a gift exchange later on but I’ve not gotten a gift yet..
Hahah, just a really really short post. & RI still hasn’t called me yet. GREAAAT.

it’s time to face the music, I’m no longer your muse

2011-12-18T16:19:00.001+08:00

I’m a person who prefers covers over originals, so here’s just one cover that I’ve been loving a lot right now.
Chester & Tiffany look and sound so good together hahahah

2011-12-18T12:32:00.001+08:00

Compared to last year, I realised that I’ve a lot lesser posts this year.
Just look at my blog archive, 185 for 2011 and freaking 417 for 2010?!!?!
I must’ve been posting rubbish in 2010.
Okayyyyy, Lush called me yesterday for an interview this coming Monday but guess what, I rejected them.
SAY WHAAAAATTTT. I don’t have a job yet I rejected their interview. Nice one, SiJia.
Well, cuz their interview’s at 6.30 and WJE’s chalet is tomorrow at 3pm.
And I don’t think I’m the suitable person to work at Lush because I think by the end of the day, I’ll vomit.
The scents inside the shop is so bloody strong..
If you ever walk pass Wisma Atria, you can smell Lush like 10 shops away.
Seriously, the smell is THAT strong. Oh, Lush is like a shop that sells fresh handmade cosmetics like..
Bath bombs, soap, bubble bars, shampoo, perfume.. Ya you get me. It’s a pretty cool shop though!
Hopefully RI calls me tomorrow, if not I’m gonna be a thick-skinned bitch and call them.
Okay, just a short post bb

Crack

2011-12-17T01:55:00.001+08:00

I thought I could handle it, I thought I was at the upper hand, I thought I’ve finally moved on.
I thought I was finally free from all these bullshit.
I was actually doing a pretty good job y’know, of hiding the feeling deep down in my heart.
I managed to mend almost all the cracks, all the memories, and prevented them from escaping.
I was finally enjoying life without you, I was actually happy.
I didn’t expect the feeling to come back and eat it up so soon, but I guess I was wrong.
Once I saw you, the feeling came rushing back to me like as if it has never left.
It was like I was back to square one, back to feeling miserable.
Why? I don’t want to continue liking you anymore, I just want to forget you.
It’s harder than I thought. Just what do I see in you? I honestly don’t know.
I just know that I’m still not over you.

2011-12-16T23:32:00.001+08:00

Hey! Sorry for not updating, just kinda lazy and stuff.
Anyway, lemme summarise my week for you guys hahaha

So.. Smiggle called. Uh-huh, and guess what, they…. REJECTED ME.
WHY ALL EMPLOYERS DON’T WANT ME :’(
I was actually pinning my hopes up high already.. Owell.
And the girls came over to my house to crash and did Christmas gift for someone.
Omg it was actually the first time I actually invited friends (with the ‘s’) over to my house!!!!

And, went to town several times this week just to hang around and such.
I am amazed at myself for being able to navigate around Orchard, like FINALLY.
Went to interview for RI, please please please please accept me!!!
It’s gonna be my last chance before I decide to resign to fate and go to work banquet @ MBS.

Oh, also went for night kite-flying! KKX’s kite is MEGAAAA huge with lights lolol
And went for a catch-up session over at WJE woohoooo! I MISS HIM SO MUCH MANNNN.
We ta-baoed a lot of food to his house and just chilled. :’) He showed us photos from his Turkey trip, SO COOL.
The guys also influenced me to start playing Gunbound again, after SO many years.
So nostalgic man hahahahaha

Alright, this is roughly how I spent the week.
Yeahhh, kinda mundane huh. I RLY NEED A JOB.

Crazy

2011-12-12T13:25:00.001+08:00

Hi.
My worked ended yesterday and I really loved it there, can’t bear to leave :(
I think I’ve officially fallen in love with children, they are like angels, so innocent and not tainted by society.
It really feels good to be able to bring a smile to their faces. :’)
I worked OT without getting paid extra but I don’t really mind lol.
And I met another amazing person, I know it’s just some stupid adrenaline rush or hormones or wdv shit.
But still, I can’t stop thinking about that person lol.
We didn’t talk much but… It’s indescribable seriously. It’s different from all the other people that I’ve met.
I know this feeling’s gonna fade but right now, I can’t seem to forget that person, seriously.
I don’t even know that person’s name for goodness sake -_-
Okay, this is absurd, insane, PLAIN CRAZYYYYY.
Ming’s coming over to my house to crash later on, k bb.
SMIGGLE, Y U NO CALL ME YET!?!?!?!?

takes one to forget one

2011-12-09T22:30:00.001+08:00

Hellooooo.
Got a temporary weekend job for the next 2 days at Toa Payoh amphitheatre.
Pretty relaxing job, just gotta take care of the sand-art booth.
I’m not really sure what the place is going to be like, but I guess it’s some sort of event or something.
Idk if I can handle the kids though.. LOL Pretty intimidated by them.
Generally they are friendly but some kids are really…. *face-palm*
Okay, just wish for the best & prepare for the worst.

Totally not related to the subject above but.. Does it really take one to forget one?
Idk, but he’s just way out of my league. Is it even worth a try?
Oh myyy, I can’t believe I’m actually moving on, somehow.
But deep down, I know I’m not ready to move on…
DO I EVEN MAKE SENSE? LOL K BYE.

ijustwnasaythatirlymissyoualotbutyoucantotallyskipthispart

2011-12-08T16:56:00.001+08:00

OHAI.

Smiggle interview yesterday was prettyyy intimidating, but the manager was super friendly so I guess that made up for it.
It was my very first formal interview because for the past few interviews,
they just want you to fill up the application form and that’s all.
But for the Smiggle interview, the manager actually did an one-to-one interview, and you have to actually promote one of their products to the manager herself.
I chose the notebook and I was speaking at the speed of light.. Old habits die hard.
Was pretty upset that T & F got a call from Smiggle saying their application wasn’t successful..
On a brighter note, they didn’t call me, so that means I still stand a chance cuz they actually said they’ll call us next week cuz there’s another round of interview this coming Saturday.
I guess the reason why the interview was so “strict” was because of the pay..
It’s a super high-paying job for a part-timer!!!
And Crocs is supposed to call us today, but it’s already 4.48PM and there’s no phone call from them yet. I guess the chance of them calling us is slim.

Anyway, Ferline came over just now and we cooked up a stormmm.
Normally I can’t invite friends over but since I have the whole house to myself.. heh.
We cooked spaghetti and it was delicioussssss. ^^

HMMMM, YUMMMM!

Yep, we slurped it all downnnn. That was actually my lunch-cum-dinner.
Since I’m basically home alone every single day for the next 2 weeks as my parents are both at work & my bro’s in school, my meals are not really regular at all.
Owellll! Alright, ending here.
Till then.

2011-12-07T13:03:00.001+08:00

Ohai, going for interview at Smiggle later on.
If I was given a choice, Smiggle > Crocs, hands down.
Smiggle has such a fun and joyous and bubbly work environment compared to Crocs!
If you don’t know what is Smiggle, here is a photo.

JUST. LOOK. AT. ALL. THE. COLOURFUL. STATIONERY. OMFG.
It’d be great if I can work there. :>
OK, WISH ME LUCK ALRIGHT!!!!
I DON’T CARE IF YOU ARE SICK OF MY FACE, I AM STILL GONNA POST A PHOTO HAHAHA.

WOO, TEMASEK POLY \m/

2011-12-06T14:41:00.001+08:00

HAHAHAHA HERE COMES MISS NARCISSIST.
Gonna get my butt burnt later on cuz F wants to rebond her hair and I have to wait 3 freaking hours.
OKAY, I AM LATE SO BAI. (JUST WANT TO FEED MY BLOG W MY PHOTO HAHAH CHEHHH)

Don’t care about the gifts cuz..

2011-12-06T11:37:00.001+08:00

All I want for Christmas is, you.

Been refreshing my blog and waiting for a new post to be up lol how dumb.
I’m just super lazy to blog, yet I’m expecting a new post to be up hahaha
Anyway, went job hunting yesterday with F&T.
We’re all praying hard that Crocs would call us, I can see that it’s a really fun and warm environment.
The pay is average but not whining since I just need a job desperately.
If they don’t call, then I guess MBS shall be my last resort.
The pay is good over there too lol.

Hmm, been feeling kinda down again.
I mean, it’s kinda unfair when you’re trying hard to live life w/o a special someone,
and just when you’re finally getting used to it, the special someone just pops back into your life once again, like as if nothing happened before.
Woah, that was a longggg sentence haha.
But yep, you get what I mean. It’s just unfair to me.
I just want a peaceful Christmas this year, with no drama whatsoever.
It’d be perfect if I can spend it with my family&friends. :>

Alright, ending off here. Let’s pray hard Crocs would call us.
Till then.

OPSS @ Beijing

2011-12-03T23:00:00.001+08:00

Hey, have been back since morning but was contemplating on whether to blog or not.
After a bad nap filled with nightmares, I’ve decided to sit down & start blogging.
So, to start things off, I just want to say that I’m missing all my awesome friends already :(
We’ve really clicked as one in just a short span of 6 days, and we even call ourselves a family.
The memories that we’ve created is really priceless.
Alright, firstly I’m gonna post up 2 short posts that I’ve written at Beijing but since China bans practically ALL social websites, I shall post it now.

30th November 2011:

HEY!! Blogging in my hotel room now with their wifi and I just wanna say that Beijing has been great so far :)

The weather's cold like omfgreallycoldtilliwannadie and the level of static is insane but nonetheless loving it here so far.

NO WORRIES, NO FRETS, JUST ENJOYING LIFE. :>

Got to visit so many places of attractions and I'm just so glad to be able to be on this trip with awesome people.

I've met so many new friends in such a short time and I even got to visit an international school today!

And something really dramatic happened today at MacD LOL.

An insane lady came over to the boys' table and snatched Irvin's McFlurry and ate the whole thing LOLOLOL.

He was SO traumatized it's so funny.

Going to visit a migrant school tomorrow and I can't wait to meet new friends!

1st December 2011:

Currently sitting on the bus and blogging.

So yesterday night, almost everyone on the 12th floor received a prank call and everyone's freaking out now.

Russell got it FOUR times and someone knocked Irvin's door continuously but nobody was at the door when he went to check.

For me, when I received the call, I was like, "hello? Hello? HELLO!? NABEI I WNA SLEEP." and I went back to sleep without giving a fcuk. .___.

I think almost all of them are digging a mountain out of a molehill but I guess it's a great experience, just like the insane lady that we met yesterday.

Alright we are on the way to the migrant school now, which is a school where the poor children study at.

It's much more colder today, even on the bus with the heater, there's "smoke" when we talk.

It's around 0 degree Celsius today so yep.

Alright ending here, till then.

In this 6 days, I’ve went to so many places of attraction, visited an international school and even went to a migrant school to teach the less fortunate kids.
I really really feel very fortunate to be in Singapore, whereby I can afford to have proper education, proper facilities, housing, food, clothes, electronic devices, etc.
I also feel very ashamed of myself for sleeping in class because in the migrant school, all the students are SO eager to learn:

Once the teacher asks a question, practically the whole class will raise their hands up, I even saw a boy jumping up and down and calling the teacher to pick him.
And yes, they do not even have a proper blackboard, it’s just a wall with black paint on it.
Despite all these, the students there are all genuinely happy and they’re not upset over the poor conditions of the school. There’s always a smile on their face and I just feel so heartened that I’m able to make a small impact in their lives.
When we were about to leave, they were all super upset and they even gave me their origami hearts with their messages on it.
They also addressed us by big sister/big brother and teacher.
I miss them all already :<

Moving on, I got to go on a trishaw ride and it was EXHILIRATING omg!!!!!!!
The cyclist was super friendly and we even taught him English while he cycled.
He also purposely went up curbs to make the ride even bumpier.
It was just a very thrilling experience, especially with the cold wind blowing against your faces!!

Next, I also went to watch an acrobatic show and it was amazing.
My heart was in my throat at some points of the show!
Even though the show was amazing, I just felt kinda sad for the performers because they are all SUPER young, like <12 years old.
Yet, they have to undergo so many tough trainings to put up a good show.
Their childhood’s just filled with all these acrobatic shows and they can’t even have a fun childhood life.
Mr Dexter (tour leader) said they might not be even schooling anymore.

I also got to climb the Great Wall of China and see snow on the last day in Beijing!!!!
WE WERE ALL SUPER DUPER LUCKY LA.
But, the snow made the climb super dangerous because it made the tiles super slippery.
We had to cling on the railing for our dear lives while climbing and I slipped once on my butt –_-
WE WERE LIKE SUPER HIGH UP AND WHEN WE LOOKED DOWN, WOAHHHH.
We didn’t even have any safety precautions and we were all wearing canvas shoes.
However, when we reached the top, it was awesome.
Even though the climb was tough, the view was greaaaat.

LOOK, LIKE SUPERRRRRR HIGH UP.

My favourite place was the Summer Palace though. The scenery is REALLY breathtaking.

Really beautiful. Totally regretted not bringing my DSLR along with me..

We also visited the National Stadium, AKA Bird Nest.
We had a snowball fight there and it was SUPER fun LOL!
Really bonded during the snowball fight.
We also did dumb things together, like skipping down the walkway with our arms interlocked and screaming our heads off.

After that, we went to Silk Market to do some shopping.
Was pretty scared at first after Lydia, the tour guide, told us to be real careful about the vendors over there.
They were really all super rough; if you don’t buy the things, they’ll PULL you and not let you go. I even got hit by a woman –_-
But I’m pretty happy with what I’ve gotten over there, Joanne helped me bargain for a bag from 600+RMB to only 200RMB!!!!

And, it was time to say goodbye. :(

I can’t believe I actually wanted to back out of this trip at the beginning!
Thank God I didn’t, because I really really really enjoyed myself.
Maybe it’s like one of the best days of my life that I’m gna remember for life.
This post seriously do not do any justice to how much fun I’ve had for the past 6 days, but I know the memories will be in my heart foreverrrrr.

BEIJING

2011-11-28T11:36:00.001+08:00

Since I won’t be bringing my camera along with me for this Beijing Trip, I shall just share with you guys some places that I’ll be visiting with photos from other people lol

The Temple of Heaven

Forbidden City

Summer Palace

Duh, the Great Wall of China!

The National Stadium-Bird Nest

Aquatics Centre

Even the hotel room is nice lol

Alright, I got to go and prepare already!
Will blog in detail when I’m back.
Meanwhile, take care :>

Virgin work experience

2011-11-28T00:17:00.001+08:00

Hey, sorry for not updating for the last 2 days, was busy working till late night.
So anyway, it was my first job and I personally think that it was a very enriching one.
Wna know my work? Well, I worked as a cleaner for 2 days for big events.
The job scope was pretty relaxing, we just have to use a pair of tongs to pick up any litter that we see.
On the first day, my shift was from 5pm – 1am for the Golf GTI Birthday event @ Old Airport Road.
I didn’t really know what to expect but I was actually pretty hyped up.
Worked together with Woanyee, Dongxuan & Ferline and we were divided into pairs.
Was sent to the kids corner with Ferline and another lady.

Basically we just slacked and picked up any litter that we see on the ground.
As the time pass by, we started to feel restless and we have to stand at all times.
So, it was physically very tiring. The lady suddenly disappeared to eat snake after a while.
Around 8+PM we couldn’t take it any longer so we just sat on a stone and had a quick rest.
Then there was this super kind lady called Margret who came to us and asked us anxiously, “Have you guys eaten? Look at the time, it’s already 9.30PM.”
We shook our heads and she was like, “COME LET’S GO FIND THE SUPERVISOR.”
So she brought us to the worn down shack which was our “head-quarters” and to our horror, we saw the supervisor and the rest of the cleaners having their dinner, SLEEPING, smoking, listening to music, and basically just slacking and wasting time.
WE WERE LIKE SO PISSED OFF, we worked our ass off while the rest of the cleaners were just sleeping wtf. They sleep to earn money while we do all those shit work.
ZZZZZZZZ, we got our dinner in the end and ate for only 15 minutes. Food sucked btw.
Went back and there was this uncle who scolded us for leaving our station.
DAFCK. He scolded us and went back to flirt with a young lady.
FUCK, he’s like 50+ years old already zz

Anyway, we worked and soon the crowd left so we had to pick up all the litter around the place.
Margret got us some Pepsi & the birthday cake too :>
Worked till 12AM and for the next one hour, we just sat there and sang songs lol.
Released at 1AM and luckily the night ended off with a good note cuz we met a super friendly cab driver :>

The next day, worked together with Trishia & Ferline at Sundown Festival 2011!!!!!
OMGOMGOMG I didn’t know we’ll be working there la!
SHOW LUO, HEBE, TEENTOP, VIVID, ZHANG YUN JING!!!!!
FUCKING SHOW LUO WAS THERE WTFFFFFFFFFFFF.
The admission was $138 and we just went in there for free HAHAHAHA
We worked from 4.30PM to 12.30AM.
THANK GOD, the colleagues there were MUCH more friendlier, even the supervisors!
Was paired together with this NP dude called Norman, funny guy lol.
It was raining the whole day so my TOMS & jeans were soaked the entire night –_-
Nonetheless, it was a fun night cuz we got to see the concert LIVE while working!!!
And our break time was 1hour SHIOK.
The food was great and we also chatted with the supervisors ^^
They believed that we smoke lolololol.
Anyway, it was the first time I actually cleaned toilets…………………………
I know, gross, but it was still fun LOL

After the crowd left, there was SO MUCH rubbish being left behind wtf.
Singaporeans, garden city indeeeed.
Cleaned up and we found a lot of pepsi, 7-up, SHARE TEA, tidbits, and vouchers being left behind.
The aunties were all so happy LOL We quickly koped the share tea and drank it HAHAHAHA
Free food always tastes better.
Our work actually ends at 1.30AM but because we were fast enough, we went home at 12.30!
Took the cab with an auntie & a SAF dude.

Okay, this is such a longwinded post but it’s my virgin work experience!!!!
Anyway, I’m going off to Beijing today (28 Nov) till 3rd December.
SO EXCITED, I can’t believe how fast time has flown by.
I still remember counting down with Joanne BEFORE O’s.
BUT NOW, IT’S HERE WTFWTFWTF.
I’m gonna have so much fun, and I’m also going to try to forget you for good.
Wish me luck guys, goodbye goodnight :)

Jam & Hop

2011-11-24T22:42:00.001+08:00

My calves are aching so badly from yesterday’s Jam & Hop but I do not regret one bit.
It was just so awesomeeee.
Words can’t describe just how awesome it was, so I shall just let some photos do the talking.
All credits go to TP!

TPRawks

2011-11-24T00:44:00.001+08:00

… WAS BEYOND AWESOME.
Totally regretted not turning up for the second day :(
Even though I didn’t get to meet a lot of new friends, I managed to love TP even more.
I was in Glamish Purple (LOL) and we were super enthusiastic on the first day!!

Today was the last day of TPRawks and we won the early bird prize, a weird storybook.
So much for getting up at freaking 5.30AM even though I slept at 2AM..
Nonetheless, at least we got a gift LOL.
The people in Glamish Purple were all super –____- at the start of the day :/
So guilty watching all the PLs trying to get us to cheer louder.

Anyway, TP Xperience 3 was HSS school.
Early Childhood is funnnn! ^^
Played some childhood games and there was this REAL piano staircase omfg so cool.
Kept going up and down HAHAHAHAH.
Lunch was buffet style and it was awesomeeee.
Went to Business school after that for Xperience 4.
Fell asleep during Logistic Management lecture –____- SO SLEEPY LA.
Kinda interested in Marketing/Retail Management lol
Got myself a red TP shirt too woohooo

After that, we went back to the sports hall to get our TPRawks Tee, which is SUPER nice btw.
And they gave us this friendship card to exchange numbers etc, mine was blank.
Cuz I’m anti-social like that.
Changed to the TPRawks tee and had dinner, BUFFET STYLE once again!
The food is seriously SO good hahaha
After dinner, Glamish Purple suddenly started saying cheers without the PLs leading!
We were suddenly so united, it was sooooo cool.
Started to feel super hyped up for the Jam & Hop WOOHOOO \m/

Was led into the sports hall for Jam & Hop and the atmosphere was AWESOME.
GREAT SOUND SYSTEM, GREAT DANCE CREW, GREAT BAND, GREAT DJ FROM BUTTER FACTORY.
We danced and danced and danced and danced the night awayyyyy.
Technically it felt like we were clubbing lol, minus the grinding obviously.
People were dance battling each other and it was so cool to witness.
But the PLs came to stop the battle :/
Nonetheless, it was fun!
Literally sang at the top of our voices and we were all sweating like mad pigs
SUPER DUPER GREAT WORKOUT LOL

Soon, it was 9.30PM, which marks the end of the Jam & Hop :(
We did our Mass Dance, which I didn’t know the steps cuz I was absent.
Thank god there was this guy who offered to teach me awww hahahaha
Damn, didn’t manage to get his number lol jk
We also did the Hey Banjar(?) dance WOOHOOOOO
They released us at 10+PM and we were all so reluctant to leave :(
I already have this sense of belonging with TP wtf
It feels like I REALLY belong here.
The people are so warm and enthusiastic and loving and fun :>

Alright, hopefully I can get into TP next year.
Beijing meeting tomorrow at 9AM, so goodnight world.

The night of our lives

2011-11-22T12:25:00.001+08:00

Prom Night 2011 is over, and I had a blast.
Definitely one of the best days in my teenage life that I’m going to keep in my heart forever.
Everyone looked so stunning and dashing yesterday, with beautiful dresses, tuxedoes, suspenders (LOL) and bowties (my fav ^^).
I could barely recognise some of my friends cuz they looked so different, in a good way.

The night started off by having Corinne’s dad drive us to Grand Park Cityhall.
Thank god it was a smooth journey without any traffic jam.
Reached the venue with 10mins to spare before 7pm.
Saw many friends and like what I said, they looked so gorgeous & hansum haha
Started taking photos and etc before we made our way up to the ballroom.
We stood outside and hung out for quite a while before we could go into the ballroom.
Managed to take that chance to catch up with friends.
Went in to our table and settled down and soon after, prom started off with a bang..
By singing the school song for the very last time.
I sang with a lot of pride hahah semangat much.

Our emcee was Mr Naufal and he was hilarious, he reminds me of Don Richmond lolol
Food was served and table-games were played.
So funny watching them so kanchiong, trying to tie everything onto the string,
I even took off my heels to tie to the string LOL
Cassandra & Wilson performed and they sounded great together :>

More food was being served and the first round of selection for Prom King & Queen started.
The finalists were Karwei, WeiKeong, Alex, Kaisheng, Eunice, Yiting & Cat!
They answered questions and some of their answers were so funny!
I LOVE HOW CAT ANSWERED TO HERS!
"What makes you think you have what it takes to be the prom queen?"
"Because.. I’M SEXY AND I KNOW IT.”
And yep, she’s our Prom Queen 2011!!!!!! :>
Super happy for her hahahaha
And our Prom King 2011 is Karwei wooohooo

We also had lucky draw and Jiayi won the top prize of an iPod Nano omg enviouszxzx.
Didn’t win anything at all –_-
OWELLLL!
After the prom, everyone gathered outside and ballroom and started taking photos again.
Gathered 4S3 and we took our last class photo :<
Hopefully we’ll meet up for BBQ or chalet!!!!
Stayed outside till almost everyone went home and a big group of us decided to lepak outside.
We walked to the river which I think is SG River, not sure lol.
Sat there and wasted our youth, had a great HTH with Travis sigh
Wanted to stay out all the way but had TPRawks today so went home at 1+am.
In the end, I overslept and didn’t attend TPRawks at all.
I’m so exhausted after Prom, it’s much more worse than camp/chalet please.

I’m feeling kinda sad now because I was looking forward to Prom this whole year and now that it’s over, I feel so empty.
It’s like there’s no more school event to look forward to anymore.
It’s really the END of my secondary school life.
I’m going to miss all of them so much. Will we ever meet again? :/
& I did something that I know I’m going to regret my whole life.
Why am I so silllly, OPSS life is over yet I didn’t even have the guts to do it.
I promised myself I’d do it yesterday, but I didn’t.
So I wasted 4 years on you, in return, I’ve got nothing back.
Well, it’s great knowing you. I’m going to remember you forever.

Ms Aisah’s Big Day

2011-11-20T22:13:00.001+08:00

Yep, wedding bells are ringing! Today, 20.11.2011, is Ms Aisah’s Wedding Day!
Attended her wedding and it was my first time attending a Malay wedding.
Kinda fascinated and confused at the same time since I don’t understand what the emcees are talking about..
BUT BUT BUT, I knew one Maher Zain song and I sang along with it HAHAHAHAH
She was so gorgeous today in her wedding gown omg, just like a princess hahaha
And a lot of OPSS teachers came too! Didn’t get to see Ms Soo & Mrs Rupesh since we left early ):
We were all so happy for her, looking at the ceremony and so on. :>
Hmmm, wonder if the students will call her Mdm Aisah or Mrs Kamal in future hahah!

Really took a lot of photos today, especially during “interval” when we went up to the second floor LOL.
Pretty excited to upload this batch of photos!
Also met up with KH for lunch/dinner using the creative eateries vouchers ^^
Xi Men Ding’s food was quite nice but we were all too full to finish all the food ._.
Also went to job hunt after that, wrote quite a lot of application forms, praying hard they’ll reply :/
Alright, shall let the photos do the talking once again!

Aww, she couldn’t stop crying :’(

Dafck they all attacked me –_-

STUPIAK YISI LOL

OH YAY I WUV THEM :3

LOL YES THIS IS MY SIGNATURE LOOK

LOLOLOL OHAI WE IZ PRETTYGURLS95
JUST LIKE A PRINCESSS

WOOHOO K BYE

Band Chalet

2011-11-20T20:58:00.001+08:00

OHAI. Since I’ve already roughly blogged about the Band Chalet, I shall just let the pictures do the talking, alright? :>
Enjoyyy, and I was still adapting to my weird-bangs so ya just ignore my face bb

ALOHA, ALOHA LOYANG! WE’RE HERE TO PARTAYEEEE

LOL, REALLY MAHJONG ALL THE WAY

CAMWHORE IN DA ROOM YO
BBQ, AND OUR VERY OWN SATAY MAN, MR NEO ^^

STILL CAMWHORING IN THE ROOM

OHAI PEOPLE

4AM ON AN EMPTY ROAD WHEEEE

HIS BEST FRIEND FOR LIFE

LEPAK IN THE CARPARK (SORT OF RHYME)
BEAUTIFUL SUNRISE, BUT WE DIDN’T GET TO SEE THE SUN, SADLY.

After the chalet, I went home and comatose for 3 hours before dragging myself out of the bed to get ready for the 37th NCO Band Camp Passing Out Parade.
Reached there & met Hafiz, but Trishia was late had to wait for her LOL
THE 4EVER LATE QUEEEEN
Once she reached, we rushed down to the stadium, so much memories filled my mind woah
Saw a lot of 36th NCO people too! ^^
This year, there was only DM & Colourguards involved, no BMs at all.
So sad la :< So they had to use recording for the DM drill design & mace work.
And I was cursing that the music would stop playing halfway LOL.
And guess that, the music really stopped playing due to technical difficulties while the DMs were marching halfway.. LOL KARMA.
Okay I’m so mean. ANYWAY, after everything, went to reception and managed to take a photo with the 36th NCO people ^^
Elijah found $50 on the floor dafck. So he treated us Mr Prata HAHAHAHAHA
Ate and went home to comatose again.

I was actually munching on some biscuits when this photo was taken zz..

LAST YEAR’S FULL 36TH NCO YO

Next day, went to do nails with F & Y.
French manicure (EXPRESS) sucks. Haix, consequences of being cheapskate.
The paint is chipping off so badly and it looks kinda ugly. :/
OWELLLLL.
Okay, shall post about Ms Aisah’s big day on my next post since it’s kinda special hehe
alright bb :>

Unplanned

2011-11-18T07:07:00.001+08:00

HI, have been awake for more than 24 hours with A, C, S and Y lol.
Watched 那些年，我们一起追的女孩 in the afternoon and it was a great movie
Went swimming after that and had mini-BBQ again.
Decided to ton for the night, so we just played lung cancer and etc.
Few of them KO-ed but we managed to persevere LOL
And it was so funny when we scared ourselves in the middle of the night HAHAHAH

Strolled to E!Hub in the middle of the night at 4AM cuz we were too lethargic but didn't want to sleep.
Super nice but spooky experience cuz the road's empty and cold hhaha was over-thinking lol
Reached E!Hub and brought drinks to the carpark to slack.
Slacked for awhile and moved to the grass patch filled with lots of mud lumps, saw Marvin too

Went off at around 5AM and we had paddle pop for breakfast!
Walked to Pasir Ris Park to wait for the sunrise, CY and I were already partially in a coma cuz we were SO tired.
Waited for the sunrise and it was breathtaking, pictures don't do the scenery justice at all

SO BEAUTIFUL.

And here I am, back in this chalet and a rat just ran to the kitchen for the umpteenth time.
Checking out in 3 hours time, can't wait to get home and KO.
Gonna attend the 37th NCO POP later on, don't know if I can make it in this state -__-
Alright, had so much fun during this chalet but I know we're gonna lose contact in some ways or another in future :(
Owell, all good things must come to and end right?
Okay I'm SUPER tired and sleepy now zz
BB

3:30AM

2011-11-17T03:34:00.001+08:00

Hi, it's 3.30AM in the morning and I'm lying on the chalet bed. I just can't fall asleep and it's so annoying...
The day went well though, played cards, mahjong and had BBQ.
YES, we went to rent a mahjong table and tiles. We are really mahjong addicts man.
Mr Neo's still as hilarious and lame as ever LOL
I doubt I'll be able to wake up later on if I don't sleep now.
But I'm just feeling so homesick and I miss my bed. :<
Okay, mattress to be exact.
Squeezing on this bed with 3 other friends, and I have no leg room at all..
Not whining but just kinda uncomfortable lol
Alright, I need to force myself to sleep right this instant!!!
My complexion is so cui now zz, prom confirm CMI.
Okay, goodnight!

Location:Jalan Loyang Besar,,Singapore

You’ve got me coming undone

2011-11-16T00:51:00.001+08:00

Good morning starshine, the Earth says hello!

Will be leaving for chalet soon, but just wanna blog again hahah.
Don’t really have anything much to talk about LOL
Okay come back in 3 day’s time to see a post full of happy photos alright? ^^
Meanwhile, allow me to leave you with a photo, courtesy of Tumblr once again.
Kinda sums up my life lol
Alright, till then.

Not always rainbows & butterflies

2011-11-15T22:01:00.001+08:00

Hi.
Will be going off for band chalet tomorrow @ Aloha Loyang, and I’m pretty excited.
Hopefully we’ll all enjoy and have fun and mingle together ^^
I wna go night cycling and watch the sunrise hahaha we’ll see.
So I guess I won’t be updating this little space of mine for awhile.
And if you’ve realised, I’ve been updating my blog regularly haha
Okay, just a short post for now.
Till then,

I know I’m going to regret this in future.
No matter what I do, I know I’m going to think back and ask myself,
“WHY DIDN’T YOU SPEAK UP?!”
But, I don’t have the guts to do so, because I know it’s gonna be futile anyway
If only you’d give me another chance, I’d definitely do anything to not let you go

The Notebook

2011-11-15T01:39:00.001+08:00

I just watched The Notebook and I’m crying like a fucking baby now.
Why didn’t I watch this movie earlier?
This movie just made me feel so heartbroken, it’s indescribable.
Unconditional love, “till death do us apart”, they really do exist huh?
This movie just made it up my list of #1 must watch movies of all time.
I just, words cannot explain this movie, seriously.
I’ve never cried so hard over a movie before, not even when I watched “Ps I Love You”.
I guess because I can somehow relate to this movie, in some ways?
After watching this movie, I feel even MORE hollow than before.
But that cry totally relieved some of the feelings that’s been bottled up.
I feel SO lightheaded now, like the whole world’s spinning haha
I’m going to bed now, and dream of The Notebook.
Goodnight people, sweetest dreams x

DOG DAYS ARE OVER

2011-11-14T21:23:00.001+08:00

Courtesy of Tumblr

DOG DAYS ARE REALLY OVER, FOR REAL.
Had my last MCQ paper just now and I am finally a free bitch, hellyeah.
And I shouldn’t have went to check my MCQ answers cuz right now, I feel so demoralised.
Honestly I didn’t really study for the MCQ paper, so can’t blame anyone but myself.
”You reap what you sow”, like what Mrs Tan always say.
Anyway, I have a packed schedule and I’m pretty excited ^^

16 – 18 Nov: Band Chalet
20 Nov: Ms Aisah’s wedding + TEAM 6 lunch sponsored by Creative Eateries OH YAY
21 Nov: PROM PROM PROM PROM!!! :>
21 – 23 Nov: TPRAWKS (I’ve not received my TPRAWKS kit until TODAY wtf, they are so inefficient. And yes, TPRAWKS clashes with Prom, but we have a plan heh)
28 Nov – 3 Dec: BEIJING TRIP OH YAY, but kinda not hyped up anymore thx to someone

I love organised and back-to-back schedules idk why.
And I need to get a job ASAP, anyone with any lobangs please please tell me thx a million!
Okay, now with so much time on my hands, I need to spend it wisely.
RIGHT NOW, TUMBLR.
BB

& I feel hollow all over again

2011-11-13T21:17:00.001+08:00

I don't understand how you can smile all day long but cry yourself to sleep at night.
How pictures never change but the people in them do.
How your best friend can become your worst enemy,
or how strange it is when your worst enemy turns into your best friend.

How forever turns into a few shorts months that you'd do almost anything to get back.
How you can let go of something you once said you couldn't live without.
How even though you know something is best for you, it just hurts the same.
How the people who once wanted to spend every second with you, think a few minutes of their time is too much to spare.

How people make promises despite knowing how common it is for promises to be broken.
How people can erase you from their lives just because it is easier than working things out.

It’s okay to be narcissistic sometimes right? hahahah I am loving these 4-photos thing
Last paper tomorrow, and I’m already being complacent.
I’ve not studied anything at all, and I doubt I can even remember anything since the previous Science papers. OH GREAT.
OK BB

Getting used to life without you

2011-11-12T23:26:00.001+08:00

HAHAHA HELLO LOOK WHAT I FOUND IN MY STASH ^
That was wayyy back in 2007, when I was 12 LOLOL.
Anyway, had a great day out with my Mom.
Love going out with her and spending some quality time :>
Got my prom dress in like less than 1/2 hour..
She is a bloody good sweet-talker, man.
I went prom shopping a few days back with my friends and I couldn’t settle on any dress at all after ONE FULL DAY, but with my Mom, I got it in such a short time!?
It’s a little pricey, so hopefully I won’t regret my choice.

Had a super hard time getting my shoes because I’m born with HUMONGOUS feet.
How I wish I’m a size 36, the perfect shoe size for a female.
BUT HELL NO, I’m a bloody size 39/40.
Surprisingly, the shoes that I’ve gotten was a size 38 LOL, SUPER HAPPY IDK WHY.
In my entire life, I can finally fit into a size 38 HAHAHAHAH.
And the shoes are like 3-inches. OH HOW GREAT, I’m already so freaking tall.
I’m gonna be the emergent layer, and taller than all the boys. JUST, PERFECT. –___-
Okay, enough of shoes.
I’ve also gotten some super warm and wooly and cozy and fluffy sweaters for my Beijing trip! ^^
I’M NEARLY DONE PREPARING FOR THE TRIP WOOHOOO.

In the evening, I went over to Woan’s for steamboat dinz! YAY
As usual, great food & great company!
Played mahjong with them till 10.30pm and home sweet home.
OKAY, ENDING OFF HERE, DINZ WITH MY SUPERDUPERAWESOMESWEETHEART TOMORROW
BB

11/11/11

2011-11-11T14:16:00.002+08:00

Hi, I’m still sick. I’ve outgrown my bangs. My hair is getting longer.
I’ve got a gl face. Christmas songs are on repeat.
Today’s 11/11/11. Nothing magical has happened yet. I’m going to the doctor’s now.
Such a wonderful day. Why are you being so nice out of a sudden. I want to stick a finger down my throat to scratch it. My body is aching so badly. I hope I don’t need to get a jab today for the BJ trip. I hate jabs. This is a rather pointless post. But who cares, only a handful reads my blog right. Okay can. Enjoy the rest of 11/11/11. Bye.

NYP – Creative Eateries: Amazing Race

2011-11-10T16:44:00.001+08:00

Took part in the Amazing Race organised by NYP and Creative Eateries yesterday with Joanne and Yisi despite being super sick.
Well, I had fun so who cares.
Trained down to Clarke Quay and I love going to that place, it’s just so colourful & vibrant lol.
LOOK AT THE SG RIVER

This river is always the joke between my friends and I hehehe.
You’ll find lousy handphones, notes and fucktards floating inside (RIGHT, SAF?)
But nonetheless, it was a gorgeous view.
Met up with the 2 other OP teams at the MRT station before walking to the meeting point.
Was actually kinda surprised that there were other OP people who joined the race!
Had briefing and they gave out tee-shirts.
Meh, don’t really like the design and the shirt was too big for me. OWELLLL.
Had a chat with one of the NYP lecturer and he was impressed with OPSS lol.
He said he actually went to our school for career day talk and loved our students.
And he requested the camera crew to follow us throughout the race wtf.
And the video is gonna be on NYPTV in the ENTIRE SCHOOL once it’s ready.
omg where to hide my face, you tell me?!

Anyway, our chaperone was Kianhui, EX-OP student too OMG HAHAHAHA.
Coincidence or what?!
Soon after, the race started and we went to our first stop at Suntec City.
Instead of training down like the other teams, we ran there LOL.
Super tiring but fun, especially looking at the camera crew sweating and running while carrying the heavy equipment. ok sadist
We reached the first station before the Station IC wtf..
Answered the question and next stop was Vivocity.
So had to train all the way to Harbourfront from Promenade.
Rushed there, answered the question again and last stop was at ION Orchard.
THANK GOD IT WASN’T RAFFLES AGAIN, IF NOT WE HAVE TO GO BACK ALL THE WAY LOL.
We were actually leading… But we reached ION Orchard and there was a group ahead of us,
and they were all super un-gentlemanly please.
So answered and rushed to the MRT Station but in the end, we took the same train as that team.
They were mega )$%^&*()P(*&^%$#%^&*(, but I shall skip that part.
Pit stop was NYP Poly so we rushed out of the train once we reached but Yisi fell down before that so we had to wait for her, but it’s olright~
We walked to NYP instead and emerged, THIRD overall.
Contented already :> Super proud that we didn’t get any penalties throughout the race.
And we won the most likable team, with a total of >380 likes on the Facebook photo.
WOOOHOOOOOOO! THANK YOU ALL FOR YOUR LIKES AND SUPPORT AND SHARING OF LINK.
So grateful to see friends liking, even acquaintances!!!! :>

WOOOHOOO, THANK YOU ALL.
HAD SO MUCH FUN LOL.

But right now, I have to suffer the consequences of an aching body, and major flu.
Cough, sorethroat, runny nose, headache…
MT Paper just now was so-so. Was having a bad runny nose and super lethargic.
There was this super kind Malay invigilator who placed a dustbin beside my table for me to throw all my used tissue paper in LOL. SO SWEEEEEET OF HIM ^^
I was making all sorts of sniffing and choking and coughing noises throughout the papers –_____-
Alright, goodbye for now :>

OPSS Graduation Day (Belated)

2011-11-08T11:36:00.001+08:00

I realised I didn’t blog about my Graduation Day in OPSS lol.
So here goes the belated post!

On the 19th of October, all the Secondary 4 students returned to school from their study break to attend the Graduation Ceremony.
Some of us were super elated to be able to see one another after so long.
We had our last assembly at the parade square and we went up the the hall after that.
Mrs Tan and the Head Councillor, QiCheng, gave a speech,
and we were all laughing at QiCheng’s dramatic hand sign.
After that they prepared a super sweet video for us :”)

Soon after, we had the usual tradition of doing the “Walk of Honour” LOL.
Super embarrassing to walk pass all the juniors and I doubt they even give a damn about our graduation.
Hugged Ms Chang cuz I couldn’t resist it, I’m so going to miss her :’(

Went to 1C1 after that because Ms Soo wanted to talk to us.
Mrs Rupesh wrote a note to tell her to read it to us, and I nearly cried after listening to it, okay I wna cry now again.
She told us that she was super proud of us and looking at our prelim results, 4S3 is ready to rock and roll.
FYI, 4S3 scored the best for English in prelim. But looking at my performance during O’s……
ANYWAY, she also personalized a note for each of us! And guess I can’t help her fulfil her wish already..
OK, after that, Ms Tan also came in and talked to us. She also hand-made a goodluck charm for us!
LIKE, SHE MADE SO MANY FOR US, SO SWEEEET.
Here it is! I have it on my pencil case 24/7 :’)

Then we ordered pizza and I went around taking photos of the school for keepsake with Manpreet.
Gonna miss 4S3..

Sigh… Anyway, the pizza soon arrived and we had our last class party!
Shall let the photos do the talking!

HAHAHAH WE HAVE THE CUTUEST FORM TEACHER EVER!

HOMEMADE TIRAMISU BY KEVIN.C’S MOM! SUPER NICE PLEASE

2A2 2009 FOR LIFE (PLUS SOME EXTRA PEOPLE LOL)

HAVE YOU EVER SEEN A PERFECT CLASS JUMP SHOT? WELL, 4S3 DID IT
(LOOK AT TTL SQUATTING BEHIND LOL)WE RULE 4S3 ^^

HAI WE ARE DA WAYNE GANG (MAPLE F3, INSIDE JOKE LOL)

Alright, this sums up my OPSS Graduation Day.
I can’t believe it, 4 years in OPSS just passed in a blink of an eye.
I still remember slipping on the metal-longkang thing on the first day of school omg.
And orientation camp whereby I was the awkwardgurlx95 lol.
Look at all of us now, we’ve graduated.
We have really really walked so far in our lives, and that means yet another chapter of our lives have been written down.

Sigh, I guess now we have to part ways and pursue our various dreams.
Hopefully 4S3 will be that one unique class that will meet up every year.
I’m already missing them, despite meeting them during O’s everyday last week.
Sigh, but life goes on right?
Alright, goodbye for now.

Pain

2011-11-06T16:02:00.001+08:00

This feeling that’s eating me up, it’s indescribable.
I don’t know how to put a finger on it.
It’s like a mix of anger, frustration, fear, sadness, hopelessness, and most importantly, pain.
This excruciating and searing pain in my heart that is here to stay and to constantly remind me of what a dumbfuck I was, to have believed him.
I refuse to believe that he is the type of person who would do this to me, he of all people.
But, I guess the truth is the truth, and the truth REALLY hurts.

He literally took my breath away, making me breathless and making my heart skip beats throughout the day.
And I feel lightheaded most of the time, like I don’t belong to my body.
I just feel disconnected, like my soul’s never here 3/4 of the time.
I can’t allow myself to enjoy a full day filled with fun with friends without being reminded of him once in a while.

I’m afraid that I’d die, really. Dying because of a heartbreak?
Ha, that’s so gonna be on the headlines.
Right now, sleep is my only escape. Whereby I can escape reality, into a whole new world where I no longer feel any pain.
But as soon as I wake up, I’m slapped by reality again.
And the pain comes right back in an instant, as if it has never left.

People say that time will heal everything, I think that’s bullshit.
I’m only giving the pain more time to hurt me, to torture me even more.
I guess this is karma, right?
I broke someone’s heart, and now it’s my turn to be punished.
I’d really do anything, to take this pain away.
I fell way too hard this time, and I don’t know if I’ll be able to move on.
A long hug and a comforting shoulder would be nice now.

I’m not sure if I’ll ever be alright, if I’ll ever find my sunshine back.
But don’t worry, I won’t wear a frown wherever I go, I’m not a selfish person.
I just need a place to pen down my thoughts and I think this is the perfect place, since nobody reads my blog anyway.
Alright, goodbye for now.

dog days are (nearly) over

2011-11-05T12:25:00.001+08:00

Ohmygod, can you believe it? I’VE FINISHED LIKE 3/4 OF MY PAPERS.
I’m now left with MT (Gosh, totally regretted re-taking) and MCQ,
and I’m gonna be a free bitch babyyyyyy.
I still can’t believe that it’s all over, my major examination.
It’s just so surreal. omgomgomgomg
But even though I’m glad that it’s all over, I’m still pretty nervous about my results.
I screwed up EL because I was too fucking nervous as it was like the start of O’s.
I was pinning my hopes on EL because I know I can do well in it (okay ego much but yes), but guess I’m gonna let Mrs R and myself down.
I didn’t complete my composition, I wrote the wrong thing for SW.
Well, I sort of ended my composition, but I ended with a question mark and it was bloody abrupt.
OH AND I AM SO LUCKY, I only studied Sri Lanka for SS, and it bloody came out.
PRAISE THE GODDESS OF MERCY.
I can only confidently say that I’ve done well for my FnN. :>
ANYWAYYY IT’S OVER RIGHT.
Now, I gotta get ready for my Beijing trip, so much winter clothing to borrow..
And not to forget, PROM. I’m actually not really exctied about it anymore.
I just, don’t want to see certain people.. Okay leave that to another post.
RIGHT NOW, I HAVE GOT 200 SCIENCE MCQ TO COMPLETE BEFORE LAST WAYNE LESSON.
Yes, the last lesson at Wayne ):
Feeling so upset because I’m so gonna miss the Eduhouse and Wayne himself..
OK BB

2011-10-15T20:50:00.001+08:00

I can haz pink hair too.
And pink skin.
Yep, O's is driving me insane, it's worse than having PMS.
One moment I will feel motivated and the next moment, I will feel so miserable that I just wna burn all the books up.
But nonetheless I'm following my study schedule religiously.
Hopefully can finish geog by tomorrow.

2011-10-14T17:04:00.001+08:00

Can't wait for this to be over.

Currently at Wendy's studying and it's freeeeeeezing here.
Just completed wayne's mock O level papers, hopefully can get a decent grade..
Yep now we're only down with 10 days before O's, WHY SO FAST........
Really bloody nervous, alright short post bai

O

2011-10-06T15:16:00.001+08:00

In 18 more days, I’ll be taking the GCE O Level Examination.
A major examination that would determine my future, something that all the teachers have been preparing us for in the past 4 years.
Something that all the 4E students in Singapore are dreading.
It’s in less than 3 weeks.
I can still vividly remember Ms Tan counting down for us at the start of the year.
And I was all, “Meh, there’s still a long way to go, what’s the hurry?”
But, BAM. It’s here. Faster than I’ve expected.
I’m not ready, HELL TO THE NO. Yet, I’m expecting good grades.
Ha, in my dreams.
Like what our Principal said: “You reap what you sow.”
As cliché as it may sound, it’s absolutely true.
So, what am I going to reap next year? I have no idea.

If only my vocabulary’s strong enough to describe how I feel right now, because this feeling is so intense.
I’m more than terrified, yet I’m excited at the same time.
I’m terrified of failing, yet I’m excited because dog days are going to be over in just 39 days.
I have so many plans after the O’s, but right now I’m stuck here facing these books.
I know that if I want to enjoy myself after 14th Nov, I’d have to work extremely hard now.
Do I have the determination and motivation? Currently, no.
But there’s nothing anyone else can do, this is a battle that I have to conquer by myself.
I know that I can brave through this fire and emerge as a stronger person.
I know I can do this.

Till 14th November, goodbye.

2011-09-30T19:07:00.001+08:00

I miss this so much

Got back all my prelim results and it waz pretty awful I guess.
Failed POA & C.Humans, thoroughly disappointed in myself for doing so badly for Geog..
Still got an A2 for CL.. I KNEW IT’S JUST A WASTE OF MY TIME AND MONEY.
But kinda happy that I passed E.Maths and got a B for my Sciences.
OMFG, A B3 FOR PHYSICS I CAN’T BELIEVE IT. THANKGODFORWAYNE.
Satisfied with my EL, but a tiny bit more to reach my goal.
FnN, total let-down.
Hmmm, my L1R4’s 18…………………………… I CAN’T DO ANYTHING WITH MY LIFE WITH 18, SERIOUSLY.
25 more day to O’s, can you believe it?!
I can’t wait for this to be over man…
Oh, and I’m going to BeiJing from 28 Nov to 2 Dec with the model students.
Not really that excited since I’ve been there to visit my aunt before..
OWELL, AT LEAST I GET TO GO OVERSEAS WITH THE SCHOOL.
OK, giving night study a miss today cuz it’s my parents’ wedding anniversary lol
Okay till then.

2011-09-26T00:32:00.001+08:00

HI, I’m in a pretttty good mood, surprisingly LOL.
Last prelim paper later on, Science MCQ.
Not gna study at all, just gna bring in an eraser to throw if i really dk –_-

1.5 more cycle left at Wayne’s and I’m feeling so sad, really can’t bear to leave that place, I LOVE THAT PLACE SO MUCH.
The best tuition centre I’ve ever been to.
Atmosphere good, tutor the BEST, fellow friends around.
I’ve really improved A LOT, especially in my Maths and Chemistry.
Should’ve listened to Travis and entered earlier..
Wasted a few months with Gregory………………………………………… –_________________-
Owell, three months at Wayne already!
Can’t wait for the year-end Thanksgiving BBQ and Chalet! ^^
Hopefully the Model student trip won’t crash with the chalet.
If not, I think I’m gna give up the trip even though I’ve never been overseas with the school before.

End-November and December’s gonna be a reallly packed and happening month and I can’t wait!
PROM, BRACES, THANKSGIVING CHALET, OVERSEAS TRIP W SCHOOL, BAND SEC4 CHALET.
CAN’T WAIT! But right now, O’s. Less than a month left.
A MONTH, YES CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT?!?!?!
And I really feel like going for the TPRawks camp.. But it falls on Prom..
WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. Actually I’m also having second thoughts about TP,
I feel like going to NP too..
OHWELL, O’S FIRST.
OK THIS IS A RATHER LAME POST BUT BETTER THAN SOME EMOTIONAL BULLSHIT POST YES?
OK CYA MUACKS

2011-09-17T14:13:00.001+08:00

HEYYYYYYYYY!
Okay so I showered and was already preparing to head to wayne's when... It started to rain.
真扫兴! So I'm just lying on my bed and blogging..
Idk what to do now but I'm just super lazy to study for my fnn..
OK ABRUPT END BB

2011-09-16T23:37:00.001+08:00

Currently writing a write-up for the graduation magazine but I can’t think of anything to write. I mean, I HAVE a lot of things to write about but all the words are just choked up in my mind and I can’t let it flow out like how I do when I blog, LIKE NOW.
I guess it’s hard because I have limitations to the words that I use since everyone’s gonna read it, unlike this little space whereby it’s all mine.
I’m only at my third line of the write-up and I’ve been deleting more than writing.

Anyway, watched Contagion just now and it was a pretty cool movie, though boring at some parts, AND NOT FORGETTING GORY WTF. I thought PG13 movies not so scary one?!
And had popcorn for dinner, yes I know my meals are so weird and irregular..
No wonder I have a weak stomach –___-
Prelims finally over for the week, I CAN FINALLY SLEEP W/O ALARM.
Slept at 3am on Wednesday and 2am yesterday = 7 hours of sleep in 2 days.
Can finally rest tonight so excited to sleep lol.
Talking about sleep, I think that it feels so much better sleeping on other people's bed than your own.. Okay I know that came out sounding wrong, but I’m serious.
Cuz went to S’s house this afternoon and despite the light and the noise, I could nap peacefully. Or maybe it’s because his bed damn comfy lol.

OK I am done with my write-up after 2.5 hours. A write-up of 60 to 80 words in 2.5 hours.. NOT BAD AH.
OKAY, UPLOAD RAYA PHOTOS NOWWWWWWW BB

Exactly six months ago, I was the happiest person on Earth. I seriously miss those times, that day to be exact, and I swear I’d do anything to have it back.
But I guess the past can only remain as something in the past.
I just want to look at you now without feeling tongue-tied or choked up with emotions.

2011-09-13T16:54:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I’d just sit here and stare into this blank space thinking of what to write but words really can’t explain how I feel right now.
I feel… Crushed? I don’t know, I just can’t explain.
And even if I try to explain, no one would really care right?
Time is running out, do I have the courage to do it? Do I?
I don’t want to leave with regrets, I don’t want to leave with all the “what ifs”.
But something tells me that these words are better left unsaid and buried.
I guess the phrase “time will tell” can no longer be used.
I have to be the one to make the decision now.
But what if these words are said and everything’s gonna be ruined?
Well, I guess I have nothing to lose now since I’ve already lost everything.

2011-09-12T22:38:00.001+08:00

"Rain Has Gone"'s been accompanying me for the past few days and this song really makes me think a lot.
Every time it starts playing, my mind would wander even though this piece is meant to help me concentrate better......
It's just super nice la lol.
Okay, SS and E.Math P2 today was so difficult.
Idk if the SS qns got typo or I just don't understand the question.
Wtf is "the cause of the Tamils"?!?! I just treated it as cause of conflict....
MEH, at least 2 killer papers are over.
MT P1 tomorrow, kinda regretted retaking.. If not I'll have an additional day to study for other subjects.
OWELL.
Alright gonna do some Geog since I had a super long nap just now. Paper starts at 11 tomorrow, good thing
k bb
And I wonder when will I truly be happy

2011-09-11T00:46:00.001+08:00

Heyaaaaaaaa!
So just came back from Yazid's Raya open house.
I actually enjoyed myself a lot, especially block catching hahaha!
Was actually my first time playing... Back in those pri sku days we were playing Alibomb ok!
Was kinda scary walking alone along the corridor at night but it was thrilling nonetheless.
Got frightened by so many people..... -___-
Great workout also LOLOL, just climbing from 12th floor to ground floor and back up and down again.
Great food too hehehe.
Alright that sums up my day, gonna get some SS done even though I'm really exhausted and my legs are aching like omgwtfbbq.
Gna do badly for prelims for sure haix k bb muacks.

Oh it's 911 today too, 10 years since the attacks.
How time flies right?
RIP to those who didn't managed to survive the attacks and may God bless America.
Ok BB for real

2011-09-10T12:57:00.001+08:00

Just a rant cuz I have nothing better to do except studying.
I don't like it when people use the reason "oh you're so paranoid, so sensitive" at me whenever I'm hurt or mad at them, thus giving them the rights to use that to retaliate back and make me think that it really is my fault and it really isn't mine.
I don't know if I'm making sense right now but honestly I don't give a flying fuck
Ok the end bye

2011-09-10T00:39:00.001+08:00

HAI AGAIN!
just reached home slightly after 12 midnight.

Had a really great night out, mostly spent at H&M.
Omfg I think I'm in love with that place, even though it's getting wayyyy overrated.
I splurged........ Okay must start saving money again..
Anyway, the crowd over there was omfg like packed sardines.
But still bearable though.
Hmm, got myself some clothes even though my mom hates it.
-_- disadvantage of age gap.
Chilled at Starbucks till all the shops were closed before we took the train to Yishun and had dinner at Xinwang since I had my lunch at 5.. Yes lunch.
So dinner was around 11pm.
Having dinner so late twice in a row..
The food at Xinwang is like SUPER salty. Like they spam MSG or something.
So shared a cab home~~~
okay, so long since I did a mundane what-happened-today post.
BUT KINDA LAME AH. LOL
OK TIME FOR CHAP2 OF SS.
Can't wait for the open house tomo at Yazid's even though i think it's gonna be prettty awkward. K hopefully not..
Pumped up kicks is stuck in my head for the past 2 days.....
BB

Won't deny that I really miss you

2011-09-09T16:29:00.001+08:00

HAI! Am at Ferline's now, going to town later on with her and C!
Night movie, H&M, just gna chill for the night.
I know prelims in like 3 days but seriously, idgaf anymore.
I'm just gonna do as much as I can and not stress myself out again.
Anyway, I FINALLY memorized Chap 4 of SS.
After like a month... Now with 3 days left, I wonder how I'm gonna memorize like 3 more chapters.
Owellllll, 船到桥头自然直 yes?
NOT GONNA DO THIS FOR O LEVEL OF CUZ.
Alright, no photos today, bb!

I need a change

2011-09-08T20:07:00.001+08:00

Heyaaa.
I don't really know what to blog about but am feeling kinda shitty now.
YOU ARE A DOUCHEBAG!!!
STOP TOYING W MY FEELINGS PLS.
Wish you'd be more direct about it, to prevent me from falling deeper.
Sigh anyway, like I said before, I changed my photographs on my board, except for some that are more precious.

Wished the board was bigger though, or maybe I should start pasting em on the wall, bigger space for me..

Oh and I just finalized my appointment!
CAN'T WAIT FOR DECEMBER!
Hopefully can be done before Christmas or New Year..

Prelims in like 4 days and I've got nothing fully revised.
Just some here and there.
SS... gosh. I obsofuckinglutely HATE SS.
And yet I'm going out tomorrow till late night and Saturday's gonna be Raya open house thing.
AND SUNDAY'S HARDCORE TUITION.
So technically I've got no more days left to study.
Imma fail prelims so badly...
OK DON'T WASTE TIME BB

Overcapacity

2011-09-07T23:51:00.001+08:00

Hey..... So today I guess I reached my max stress capacity.
Was feeling super grumpy and getting pissed off at every single thing.
I just couldn't get any SS into my head and my eyes were so weary and stingy.
Omg it's only the prelims and I'm getting so stressed out.
Guess I'd be dead before the O's huh? Sigh.
Anyway, I gave tuition a miss today, as encouraged by my mom cuz I was so idk, frustrated. Feeling really guilty for skipping but I guess I need a break badly.
Anyway, I baked some cookies to make myself happy lol.

Hmm, I know it looks pixelated on my blog, so click for better view if you want; I swear it looks better if you click it.
Alright, by hook or by crook I gotta get some work done today, causes of conflict maybe..
Yes I'm SO slow. -_-
till then.

2011-09-07T11:15:00.001+08:00

HEYAAAA! ^^
I'm back to my blogging mood all thanks to this app, so convenient hehehe.
ANYWAY, SUCHA NICE WEATHER TODAY DON'T YOU THINK SO?!

And I'm stuck behind these bars, studying and studying and studying.... Meh.

Oh and allow me to talk about my love-hate relationship with Signo pens.
THEY ARE REALLY NICE TO USE BUT THEY ARE BLOODY DELICATE.
Once you drop it on the ground, uncapped; the life of a Signo pen is over.
And I've dropped 3 Signo pens in like 3 weeks, somemore the ink's still FULL.
OMG THE FEELING IS INDESCRIBABLE PLEASE.
OKAY IM LIKE RAMBLING ON AND ON....
BACK TO STUDYING, BB

Location:Sembawang Crescent,,Singapore

OMG THIS IS SO COOL

2011-09-06T15:39:00.001+08:00

HELLLOO!
Just testing this new blog app! OMG that means I can blog on the go now, with photos too! ^^
Yep, currently cramming my brain with Social Studies.
First paper next week.. Been studying conflict & harmony in multi-ethnic societies for THREE
bloody weeks.. HOW SLOW CAN I BE.
Okay tuition later on again, kinda tired :/
K BLOG AGAIN SOOON!

Thinking of removing them and putting new photos..
Hmm owellll okthxbai!

2011-09-05T23:45:00.001+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE!
SHORT POST, I ACTUALLY GOT QUITE A NUMBER OF THINGS TO TALK ABOUT.
But, once I open Windows Live Writer, everything in my mind just went POOF! gone.
Anyway, went to Malaysia today, for the first time in my life.
If you don’t count genting la.
So went to JB with aunt and mom, was kinda scared about the environment at first,
all thanks to that MK.
But was actually kinda safe I guess.
LOL I LOVE THE THUMBPRINT SCAN THINGY, SO COOOOOOOL.
So yep, went to City Square and walked the whole day, nothing much.
Still love SG more than anything, safe, secure, clean, good food.
OK LA, THIS POST IS SO LAME.
TILL THEN

2011-09-01T19:37:00.001+08:00

Fucking dumb of me, that’s all I can say.
I can’t even comprehend all that’s happening, I don’t even know how to react.
I said I’m gonna move on but it’s fucking hard because I still..
bah, I’m just fucking dumbbbbbbbbbb to have fallen for you.

I wish nothing but the best for you

2011-08-26T20:05:00.001+08:00

HELLOZ.
Prelims have started yesterday and now it’s the long weekend!
Still thinking whether I should attend school next Wednesday or not.
But kinda waste time since Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and Friday are non-school days.
Okay, Thursday’s actually Teachers’ Day celebration..
Anyway, EL paper yesterday was… I must say, tough.
P1 was manageable but P2……………… –____-
Maths paper today was SURPRISINGLY ok for me.
Hopefully gonna pass, really don’t want Wayne to be disappointed :/
Had a great time yesterday over at Wayne’s recre-room with the trolls.
Studying and GL-ing LOLOL.

Thinking of getting a guitar, ok actually I’ve been thinking about it since last year.
But kinda worried that it’s gonna be a distraction LOL.
OK SHORT UPDATE BB!
AND I REALLY MISS MY USED-TO-BE-LONGISH-HAIR…
HAIX… Nah my gl face to end off

2011-08-22T23:58:00.001+08:00

Still have this photo that I took a year ago, just cannot let go of the quote lol.

Day 1: Failed.

Disastrous

2011-08-21T22:51:00.001+08:00

I broke down real hard after my EL oral.
I was stumped by the conversation question,
and I literally kept mum for a very long time.
I was begging for them to just let me out of the examination hall.
I couldn’t breathe when I was sitting infront of the 2 examiners.
The lady was nodding her head, prompting me to go on, the dude was giving me this fvcked up face.
I rushed out of the hall, I bit my lips.
I heard Carene calling me to go down to the La Vista study area.
I ignored Ms Chang when she saw me and I ran down.
I saw my friends, all asking me what happened.
The floodgates were opened, tears just poured down and I was literally sobbing.
Ming, Nazihah, Kahjun, Carene, Rachel, Travis were all there, hugging me, holding me.
I cried not only because of my EL oral performance,
I cried because I’ve let Mrs R down.
Her expectations of me, I just couldn’t perform up to her standards.
I felt so guilty for letting her down.
I just cried and cried and cried, but I told myself I have to move on.
I have to do doubly hard for my written papers.
Nonetheless, I feel so grateful to have friends around me to hold me when I’m broken.

Anyway, after getting my feelings played with, I have decided to MOVE ON.
I guess this is what we call karma right?
I did the same thing, now someone’s doing the same thing back to me.
I guess I deserve all this bullshit in a sense.
The route to giving up is not going to easy, but I sure hope it’s gonna be worth it.
Cuz’ it’s just 2+ months before O’s, seriously hope it’s gonna do me good.
No more crying, no more wiping tears alright?!
I can do this, and even if I can’t; I MUST DO THIS. FOR MY OWN SAKE.
I HAVE TO. LEARN TO LET GO. AFTER 1326 DAYS, I’M GONNA GIVE UP ON YOU.
~~NEVER~~ GONNA GIVE YOU UP, ~~NEVER~~ GONNA LET YOU DOWN

2011-08-18T21:21:00.001+08:00

The awkward moment when you're eating dinner at someone else's house and you don't like the food, but you have to pretend to like it..

lolsofunny:

Then they ask you if you want more:

LOLOLOLOL This post on tumblr reminded me of that time at Ming’s house.
And another time when her Mum forced me to eat an apple when I was already so full,
and I threw the apple out the WINDOW, from the fifth floor. HAHAHAHA
And I think the apple hit the roof of a car cuz we heard a loud “THUMP”.

LOL, OKAY EL ORAL TOMORROW.
Oh, and I got an A2 for O Level Chinese.
Hmm, feeling kinda indifferent about it, not really very happy cuz I guess I’ve got higher expectations of myself.
Still contemplating if I should re-take or not.
I don’t really wanna waste my time, should concentrate on other subjects.
BUT STILL… OK DILEMMA MUCH
K TILL THEN MUACKZX

There's got to be somebody for me out there

2011-08-17T16:13:00.000+08:00

Hey, just a quick update while I'm on the bus!
Yep, it's 4pm and I'm otw home, a long time since i can go home so early!
My coursework is done, like after 8 months of suffering and all.
So grateful cuz I can already secure part of my FnN marks.
Hmm, been sleeping at 1 everyday cuz I've been preparing for Prelims!
Yep, I finally found da momentum and motivation to study.
Hopefully it can last till O level.
Getting back my MT O level results tomorrow.
So so so nerve wrecking please. I really want a distinction..
And EL Oral this coming Friday, Prelims next Thursday..
Time sure flies eh? Sigh, soon I'll be leaving OP.
Despite how much I wanna get out of sec skool, I'm gonna miss everyone.
Damn, making me so emotional on the bus lol.
Alright, reaching home soon so I shall just end here, take care everyone.

Trying to hold on to what's left of our relationship.

2011-08-11T23:51:00.001+08:00

Doubt that I’ll be updating much, with prelims coming in 14 days and O’s in 70 days.
Things have been falling apart, but guess I’ll overcome it soon… I guess.
Life’s not a bed of roses.
Until then,
take care everyone.

24 hours is never enough

2011-08-05T21:57:00.001+08:00

SUPPP.
Pretty much a dead blog, been over neglecting this space of mine way too much.
Well, Prelim’s in 20 more days. YEP, that’s like less then a month left.
I’ve not started any revision at all & I’m not even panicking.
Yep, I’m not. I have no idea why.
Anyway, school’s been busy, as usual. Been falling asleep in class way too much.
I’m so sick of falling asleep in class, ughhh.
But it seems like no matter how many hours of sleep I get,
I’ll still be super lethargic in class. SIGHHH.
Been going to Wayne for nearly the whole week this week for tuition & tests.
Seriously hope that I can pull up my grades.

Can’t wait for Racial Harmony Day cum National Day (ok, i change topic way too fast)!
Nearly the whole class will be wearing traditional costume (OF ANOTHER RACE SOMEMORE!)
And those who’re not wearing (2 people) are not coming to school due to peer pressure..
LOL WE ARE SO MEAN.
Anyway, I’ll be wearing Manpreet’s Punjabi costume omgomgomg so excited hahaha.
Ok, gonna bring my DSLR to school on Monday, can’t wait for photo spam! ^^

Till then,
take care.

Blessed 16th

2011-07-23T20:41:00.001+08:00

Yep, it’s the 23rd of July 2011.
I’m officially 16.
Quite a simple celebration but nonetheless, I enjoyed myself a lot.
Received texts once the clock stroked 12midnight. THANK YOU ALL!

My cousin called me from China and played Happy Birthday on the piano for me!
SO TOUCHED LAAA OMGOMGOMGOMG!
Watched HP7 with Ming, Woan & Wilson in the morning, 1145am’s show!
Actually, HP7 wasn’t really a VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY awesome movie..
The built up was intense but the climax went kinda fast to me..
It’s like, WHAM, he’s (won’t say who) dead; THE END.
But nonetheless, it’s a movie not to be missed.
Wish I watched it in 3D though.. But digital was great too!
After the movie, realised that I had 4 missed calls from Nazihah,
and when I called back, my friends all sang Happy Birthday for me thru the phone!
MAJOR AWWWWWWW PLEASE!!!!!!! SO TOUCHED (AGAIN) LAH ZOMFGFGHNQAUICNFQEIORJHQIO!!!

Then we went to Dhoby Ghaut’s Just Acia with Ferline joining us!
Ate and had funn~ Wilson had to skip tuition just for my birthday LOL AWW THX.
After that Wilson went out so we went to FEP.
Walked around and saw so many things that I want, especially the iphone cover.
But it was so bloody expensive .___.

Left at around 5+ and went to NP’s Swensens to meet my family!
Ate and the service’s getting lousier.
There were like babies screaming their heads off, waiters dropping plates/cups on the floor, food being served late (and of low quality).
But owell, blessed to have food on da table.

This year’s birthday was simple and sweet with my loved ones around me.
Thank you all for your wishes and gifts!
As the birthday girl, I wish that everyone will stay healthy and happy!

Till then!

2011-07-22T21:18:00.001+08:00

So had my DPA interview yesterday and it was horrible.
That’s all that I can say about it.
They only wrote a line on my application form, and got this dude whose form was filled up.
But the guys all cheered me up by saying,
”EH, maybe they wrote “this girl is confirm in.” then wrote “this guy is confirm out because he overly enthusiastic etc etc etc………””
LOL, nice try ah they all.
But owell, I gained a lot of experience and at least I toured the whole culinary academy.
It all boils down to yourself I guess, gotta study hard and get in by JAE with the rest with my own hardwork and effort.

On a lighter and happier note, my close friends surprised me at the study area today with a cake and I was seriously so touched man.
So grateful to have you all as my friends, you know who you are!
And thanks for the present, Nazihah!
My first present for my 16th birthday hehehe.
Alright, HPII tomorrow with friends, like finally!

Till next time,

DPA

2011-07-21T00:14:00.001+08:00

I got shortlisted by TP to go for an DPA interview.
Yep, still remembered me saying that it’s highly impossible for me to even get accepted through the first stage?
Wellll, looks like I proved myself (AND MS TAN) wrong.
When I received the email, I was honestly dumbfounded cuz I’ve never expected it.
They only gave us 1.5days of preparation.. Guess they want us to think on our feet.
Interview’s in less than 12 hours’ time and I am honestly very very nervous.
My first ever interview (group somemore) and this concerns my future path.
It’s either make it, or break it.
Yep, gonna skip school for the interview since it’s at 9am.
Such a weird timing, they expect us to skip school for an interview.
Alright, I’ve already did all my necessary research,
just hope that I don’t screw up during the interview (no stuttering, no blanking out).
EYE CONTACT, ENGAGING, CONFIDENCE.
K, wish me luck cuz’ I really need it. (If there’s still anyone reading my blog la)
Will keep you guys posted.

that’s what I’m here for

2011-07-18T23:30:00.001+08:00

INSTAGRAMMMMMM!

zomg I cannot believe I neglected my blog for so long,
I forgot that I even have a blog.
Ok anyway, supz.
24 HOURS IS NOT ENOUGH FOR ME, LIKE SERIOUSLY.
LIKE WORK > TIME. HOW, YOU TELL ME, HOW?!?!!?!? WTF ZZZZZ.
Remedial after remedial, tests after tests, tuition lessons after tuition lessons.
I’m facing Maths for 7 days in a row, if I still get a F9 in return,
I swear I will kill myself.
I just don’t get why I suck at Maths.
And some people, just like to rub it in. wtf so smart still in OP for wut.
Ok I should stop whining and complaining,
but this is like the only place for me to vent my anger lol.
On a happier note, I got full marks for my recent POA test,
after getting for single digit for the first one; I have redeemed myself.
Been dozing off in EVERY lesson.
Like for the first 20mins or so, I’ll be alert & focused, then after that,
I will start dozing off. And the weird part is, I DON’T EVEN KNOW I AM DOZING OFF.
WTF IS WRONG WITH MA BRAIN. STM still not enuffz.
Ok, a lot of undone homework but I can’t be bothered cuz,
SLEEP > HOMEWORK (Yep, mentality of someone who's gonna take her prelims in 38 days)

AND TO SAF, DOWNLOAD “PHOTOSCAPE” LA SLENGE.
BEST FREE PHOTO EDITING SOFTWARE EVERRRRR.

K CIAOZ

2011-07-14T22:35:00.001+08:00

Sup, sorry for not posting much.
Pretty busy with school, 41 more days to prelims, can you believe that?!
Anyway, I applied for DPA; even though I know I won’t be chosen.
Like, out of so many prestigious schools and smartass people, why would they choose an ordinary girl form a neighbourhood school?
Even Ms Tan said that to us, pretty demoralising huh.
But owell, I won’t lose anything from it anywayz.

Oh, I can’t wait for Racial Harmony Day hehehe ^^
Gna borrow costume from Manpreet woohooooo~
K, next topic. FNN O LEVEL COURSEWORK PART B PRACTICAL TOMORROW ZOMGZOMGZOMGZOMG.
ONCE THAT’S DONE, I AM DONE WITH FNN COURSEWORK FOREVER.
YESSSSSSSSS.
K, gonna sleep now. I function better with 7+ hours of sleep.
Slept at 2am two days ago and I was like .____. the whole day.
Slept at 11.30pm yesterday and I felt moreee alert.(eventhoughifellasleepduringphysicsbutstillitried)
K CIAO

Failure

2011-07-11T20:41:00.001+08:00

只怕我自己会爱上你
不敢让自己靠的太近
怕我没什么能够给你
爱你也需要很大的勇气
只怕我自己会爱上你
也许有天会情不自禁
想念只让自己苦了自己
爱上你是我情非得已

Seriously screwed up my O Level MT Oral.
Damn, my worst oral ever in my 10 years in school.
When she started the conversation question, my mind literally went BLANK.
It’s like everything in my brain started malfunctioning and it’s just a blank, white patch.
And I just went, “因为………………………” (because…………………) and laughed to myself nervously –.-
And I finally started to crap and talk without even thinking through.
I stumbled and stuttered and I even rolled my eye at the invigilator cuz I said the wrong word ._.
I went “BLEAHEGGGG” lol seriously Sijia, how retarded can you be.
OWELL, Ama & Saf consoled me and told me what’s done is done.
And it’s true, shall not think about it already.
”NEVER A FAILURE, ALWAYS A LESSON.” That’s my phone’s lock screen wallpaper.
Been failing in almost everything nowadays.
I need to attend Sec TWO tuition classes at Wayne.
Don’t ask why. Sigh, kinda demoralising but it’s for my own good yes?
Got a single digit for my POA Test.
Been sleeping in class everyday wtf.
I NEED TO SLEEP EARLIER BUT I ALWAYS GO BACK ON MY WORDS.
21 DAYS TO CULTIVATE A HABIT, GONNA START TODAY. SLEEP AT 10PM.
OK BYE

2011-07-10T00:17:00.001+08:00

HAHAHA THIS, THIS.
Back in 2007, in my P6 days, the guys used to make this for us to express their “love” ROFL IT WAS SO FUNNY.
They would buy a whole box of colourful paper-clips from the bookshop,
and make them into hearts for us during self-study LOL
And we would take them and treasure it like gold wtf.
I still keep it until today HAHAHAHAHAH so silly.
Ah, I miss my primary school days.

hahaha it’s futile

2011-07-09T22:04:00.001+08:00

Suppp.
Had oral workshop at Geylang East Library today.
Really a very beneficial workshop but I think Ms Taz’s over-usage of “my dear”,
IS REALLY FREAKING IRRITATING AND ANNOYING WTF.
But nonetheless, I’ve learnt a lot from her!

After that had Mac with friends and headed to YCK to meet Ferline.
Went for our weekly swim, actually I’m the only one swimming LOL.
Swam laps then went to our usual spot and talked while I let the Sun bake myself.
Left at 4 and went to AMKHub; looking for a suitable portable charger.
Challenger sells it at like $90………………

Wanted to tauhuey with M & W but they had to rush their work,
so in the end went to Starbucks with F.
We step high-class and ordered drink even though we don’t have enough money.
Had to use my gift-card NOHHHHH.
So we sat there and people-watched; SO MANY OP PEOPLE THERE
Drank our drink VERYYY SLOWLYYYYY to savour every sip.
Sat there for like 2 hours LOL.
ZY came and chatted with him for awhile.
Left at around 8:30 and I found my portable charger at mini-toons HAHAHA
The salesman is damn charismatic and persuading la.
In the end I succumbed and bought one; $40. –___-
But can charge my phone for 2 times so worth it la k.
And got discount of $10 too k!
K, i sound so cheapskate.
Saw EZD too so we bus-ed home together~

Now I am sunburnt once again and I can’t stop scratching myself.
My whole body is burningggggggg.
Oh and my 2.4km run was 15.29mins lol, improved by 1minute.
TTL say can aim for Gold but my sit-and-reach CMI la plzzz
OK OFF TO DO HOMEWORK, WAYNE SCIENCE & MATHS TESTS TOMORROW WTF, NEED TO STUDY ALREADY
K CIAO LOVE YOU ALL MUACKS MUACKS
AND I WANNA WATCH HARRY POTTER LIKE NOWWWWWWWW

End of my journey for now

2011-07-06T22:02:00.001+08:00

Yep, I have officially stepped down from OPWO.
After 4 years of sweet and bitter moments..
Words just can’t describe my love for band.
Call me a band geek or semangat band member or what, but it’s true.
I know it’s time to let go and focus on my O’s but it’s hard.
OPWO contains too much memories for me, it’s like a part of my life already.
And now, you want me to let go immediately? No, I can’t do it.
SIGHHH. But life still goes on, whether you like it or not.

Kinda disappointed that Mr Neo couldn’t make it at the last minute to the ceremony though.
So yep, the new committee members were chosen, new majors.
No more girl power, now’s the guys’ turn to take over.
Hopefully they will work together and bring the band to greater heights.

No more leaving school at 7pm on Wednesdays, no more Saturday rehearsals from 8 – 4,
no more touching my Clarinet, no more conducting, no more screaming, no more making music..
But it’s only for now. I’m coming back, as an alumni for sure.
This is only the end of a chapter of my life, there’s more to come.

Now, I gotta focus. O Level MT on 11th July and Prelims in a few weeks’ time.
Thinking of applying for DPA since it’s a win-win situation, I don’t stand to lose anything.
Okay, till then.

2011-07-04T22:22:00.000+08:00

No inspiration for my 2 reflective writing plans at all.
Seriously, it's such a simple question and personal based but I can't think of anything.
Joys and stress of being a secondary school student.
Easy enough huh? But yet I just can't.......
Ugh so frustrating!!!
Okay schools starts tomorrow, boy am I excited..
Wayne tuition tomorrow too.
Gonna be a long and tiring day tomorrow, as usual.
Ok bye.

I will not succumb to temptation.
I will wait because if you want to, you will.
If not, you're not worth it.

2011-07-04T18:35:00.001+08:00

Oh and I saw the pair of shoes that I’ve been looking for at Cineleisure’s Vans.
OMFGWTFBBQ I WAS SO HAPPY WHEN I SAW IT.
AND WHEN I LOOKED AT THE PRICE, OH BOYYY.
It costs $79 wtffff.
My birthday’s coming so I might ask my Mom for it.
See how it goes but omgomgomgomgomg I found it~~~~
K remembered I said that I was going to do my homework today & declined a movie?
It turns out that I wasted my Youth Day at home, chilling.
NO WORK DONE. GREATTT, should’ve went out with them.
OK CIAO

My Wish

2011-07-04T01:13:00.001+08:00

Been busy making a video for a very special occasion.
I kinda enjoy making videos, even though it pisses me off real bad most of the time.
But it’s just so nice to see the end product.
I chose the song My Wish and I think I’ve replayed it for like a million times
while editing the video cuz I have to keep rewinding and editing and adding new stuff.
LOL SO TROUBLESOME.
Anyway, I really like this song cuz I think it kinda suit the occasion?

”My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold.”

”This is my wish
I hope you know somebody loves you
May all your dreams stay big”

Yep, getting pretty emotional over this song and thinking about the occasion lol.
Anyway, tuition at Wayne’s was not bad.
But he teaches at the speed of light and I can hardly catch up.
Pop quiz after every lesson, I got a 2/14 for my first one –___-
NICE JOB SIJIA.
After tuition, ZY, KJ and I sent Ming home first.
After that we walked to Beancurd City and wtf they bloody scheming ._.
Went there to meet SK and had beancurd & chilled.

After that they decided to walk around the private estates behind Beancurd City.
GREAT, it was pitch-dark and nobody’s on the road except for occasional cars
& some dogs barking their heads off.
So we walked and sang and reached an abandoned playground.
Went on the swing and KJ pushed me till I wna fly off LOL
After that, I was feeling so hyper like I’m drunk or smth HAHAHAA
Seriously, like a sudden surge of euphoria wtf.
Then we walked one big round and reached Beancurd City again.
Caught the last bus and reached home!

Quite a fun night out!
Alright, gonna finish editing the video and I’m done!
Can’t believe I turned down a movie trip tomorrow cuz of homework..
Sijia just turned down the chance to get out of the house due to homework.
WOAH, MIRACLE LOL

Ok, ciaoz!

2011-07-03T17:35:00.000+08:00

SUPP!
sorry for not updating this space of mine!
Been pretty busy lately.
Anyway I'm at Yishun MRT Station waiting for Ming now.
So might as well update!
Having my first Wayne tuition later on at 730!
Till 930 woahh.
Anyway, am pretty excited except for the act that the homework's really tough..
OK SHE's COMING SO I'LL SEE YOU WHEN I SEE YOU!

2011-06-30T23:51:00.001+08:00

My life is complete.
First time getting 30+ notes on tumblr for an original photo.
But it feels great to share my passion.
Here’s the photo:

Damnn, gonna miss my love so much.

2011-06-28T23:40:00.001+08:00

I want to tear the walls around you down.
Please, it’s too much for me to handle right now
I can’t help but feel so miserable
Nobody understands, maybe nobody even want to understand my problems
They all got their lives and shit to deal with too
Just. too. miserable.
I want to get out of this school fucking badly, period.
I want a new life @ a new environment
A fresh, new page.
Now, it’s too tainted and too……
I don’t know what I want now
I just want someone to hold me and say everything’s going to be alright
It’s killing me, I can only handle so much

go screw yourself

2011-06-27T20:48:00.001+08:00

Feels good just to get it all out
it's so not overrated
You can't keep putting me down
And getting away with it